31 August 2015. 04.43 am.

Pain is a pesky part of being human; I've learned it feels like a stab wound to the heart, something I wish we could all do without, in our lives here. Pain is a sudden hurt that can't be escaped. But then I have also learned that because of pain, I can feel the beauty, tenderness, and freedom of healing. Pain feels like a fast stab wound to the heart. But then healing feels like the wind against your face when you are spreading your wings and flying through the air!

Since I was young, I have always known this: Life damages us, every one. We can’t escape that damage. Pain does two things: It teaches me, telling me that I am alive. Then it passes away and leaves me changed. Deep into this darkness peering, I used to keep wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams that I never dared to dream before. All my soul within me was burning. No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. I discovered that what most people call creepy, scary, and spooky, I call comfy, cozy, and home.

Time was passing like a hand waving from a train I wanted to be on. 31 August 2015. It’s finally coming for a freedom, life, and revenge. Wait for me, wait for me...I will come to you. Just, wait for me. It won’t take that long anymore. Wait for me, both of you. Thanks to both of you, now I feel like wanting to commit the murder I was imprisoned for. I wish I could tell you how lonely I am. How cold and harsh it is here. Now, after so many years, I understand what the coldness was and where it came from — this sense that everything is lost, and worthless, and meaningless. Everywhere there is conflict and unkindness. I think God has forsaken this place. I believe I have seen hell and its white, its snow-white. Wait for me. Oh, just wait for me. Let me show you, what hell is really like.

KIM NAMJOON (28) - THE SINNER         CHIEF LEE JAEHYUK (46) - THE KEY HOLDER        LEE MOONBYUL (27) - THE 'INNOCENT'

 

Author's Note:

Hello readers, this is my first time writing this 'kind' of story though this is my fourth fanfic on AFF. 

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