Namjoon stares at the ceiling and sighs. Sleepless nights are integral part of his life. 

It is cold and dark. Just as the other nights. Maybe as the rest of his life will be…NO! He won’t let that happen! He will get back the one that has been taken away from him. His life, his soul, his happiness, his everything. His only reason to live. He has got everything that she wished for. All that, she had foresaken him for. He wanted to see if these money and power can actually make one happy? They did not work for him. But may be they make her. 

"Irene...why did you do it? It would have been a blessing if you had killed me before leaving....Are you happy now? Without me...without us? Please come back Ren...It hurts so much..." Tears run down haphazardly on his cheeks. He pours himself another glass. With his status, the brand and strength of the alcohol improve. But nothing helps the stabbing pain in his heart that spreads in his veins and curses his existence. He cannot even kill himself. No. He'll never do that. He needs to see the end. He has to know the extent of this suffering. How much more it will devastate him? For how long?

He opens his eyes and a single tear rolls down. Namjoon smiles wistfully. He does not cry anymore now. But the pain...it is still there. He guesses he must have learned how to endure it. He looks out of the glass door to the balcony. Should he drink tonight as well?

A knock on the door makes him frown. Who could be here so late? It sounds like...

"Unkeel!! Unkeel!! Opin pweese."

"Aera?" He quickly gets up from the bed and opens the door to find the little girl with a maid.

"Unkeel!I get you tea!" She points at the tray. The lady is holding it.

"Keep it inside." He moves from the door and they enter. He is quite surprised to find them instead of Joy.

"Anything else sir?"

"No, thank you." 

She bows and leaves as he says that Aera will come later.

"So...may I know what you are doing up so late?" It is past midnight.

"I can no sleep! Baby-ah is cry-cry and Joy has xim tomro! Baby-ah hurt and sick so I get tea for you! I've no eskool tomro!! " She explains.

Namjoon frowns and takes her hand to follow. As he stops infront the door he takes in the situation.

There are papers scattered on the small study table and the laptop is left open. There is a flustered Joy who is trying to calm a irritated baby. She is walking slowly to and fro and making soothing noises. The maid is standing there, looking at them worriedly.

"I am sorry Mrs. Joy. I tried but..." She lowers her head.

"It is okay." Joy smiles slightly, "She is just feverish from her injections. See! Even I cannot make her quiet."

"Joooyyy!!!"

Aera walks into the room and Joy puts her hand on the little head, "Hey Aera! Did you give your Uncle Namjoon tea?"

 "Yesh! He is here!"

Joy looks at the door and raises her eyebrows, "Namjoon?"

He just shrugs and enters, "She said you are having some troubles."

She looks at the little girl, "Aera, It is time for you to sleep."

"But..."

"I know love, you want to help. But it is so late now. I am sorry that you cannot sleep here. Baby-ah is sick so the lights will be on and it will disturb you.You may get sick as well. So, love, go with unnie." She nods to the maid.

"Okay..." Aera nods understandingly. 

"Good girl! I promise we all will sleep together once Baby-ah is fine. Hmm...?"

Aera kisses and hugs them both. Joy instructs the maid to stay with the little girl in Noel's room.

"Namjoon...You here? I mean is all okay?" She asks tiredly.

He takes in her appearance. Her hair is tied in an untidy bun with shadows under her eyes. She looks exhausted. She is wearing one of those over-sized t-shirts he got her.

"Shall we consult a doctor?" He peers at the whining baby.

"Oh! I've. Remember I said that it is cuz of those injections? I have given her meds but it will take time to work." She pecks her tiny head and she whines a little louder, "I think she is angry with me." Joy laughs a little, "I took her to the doctors after all." She raises the baby to her face, "You are angry with mummy? Are you?" The soft tone of her mother's voice makes her more emotional and she folds her  lower lip outward.

"Owww...baby..." She hugs her back and kisses. Deiji sniffs and snuggles more. Her lower lip is still jutting out. So cute.

Joy turns head towards Namjoon to find him looking at them with an amused smile. He has been smiling lately.

"Namjoon, did you fall asleep? Sorry, I could not get you the tea on time," She gestures towards the baby, "I lost the track of time and was working on my presentation." She glances at the table and sighs.

"Yeah, Aera was telling about your exam tomorrow." He checks the time. 1 a.m.

"Yes, a presentation and a test. The scheduled date of the test was just after her birth. So, I missed it. But considering my reasons, they allow me to write it tomorrow." She perches her lips, "I have not completed the presentation yet."

Namjoon nods, "You could have asked any of..." He remembers the help, "... the maids but that did not work out, right?"

They both shake their heads knowingly.

"I just hope her meds become effective sooner so that I can get back to my work." She utters helplessly.

"You are doing bachelors in History, right?" 

"Yes." Joy begins to walk around again, swinging the baby in her arms.

"Oh." He will not be able to help her and there is no time to start studying. His eyes fall on the irritated baby in her hands. He gulps and thinks again about the suggestion he is about to make. Why is he worried about Park Sooyoung's studies and Ahjusshi's fever? What these are to him? He frowns. After sometimes, he nods to himself. 

She turns to find him behind her. She looks at him questioningly.

"Give her to me." He states.

Joy blinks and raises her eyebrows, "Sorry?!" She clears , "I mean why are you taking so much trouble?! Besides I myself cannot make her calm and..." She does not want to imply that he might not be able to as well.

"Well, I was just saying cuz...cuz I am paying for your studies. If you fail then my hard-earned money will be wasted." He replies with a sneer. He wants to sound annoyed and careless. He succeeds to do so but bringing up the expenses, he is not liking it. 

"Oh, you can try." Joy says softly. She does not mind the prick. His slight fumble and lack of eye-contact convince her otherwise. She tilts Deiji slightly, indicating him to take her. 

Namjoon blinks. He forgot this part that he has never held a baby before. His first close interaction with small human beings was with Bae Aera, who is a toddler. He puts his hands foreward. He has NO idea how to do it.

Joy smiles and guides his one hand on Deiji's back and the other under her arms. Then asks him to hugs her slightly. 

Namjoon cannot believe it. SHE IS SO LIGHT. Like she has no body mass at all. She looks even smaller now in her woollen panda onesie which is quite thick.

"She is so small and weightless." He gasps. 

The baby stops whining and looks at him with wide doe eyes. She seems quite curious about who he is.

"Oh my goodness! Deiji! She has stopped!" Joy says in wonder.

Even the young father is surprised with this. She seems to like him?! He is not sure, "Umm...I think you should begin your work. I think I can handle her."

She nods gratefully and gets back to her study table. Joy begins to start working from where she had left. After a while, she leans back to check on them.

"So...how was your day? Oh! I know how it was. I was there." Namjoon is holding Deiji a bit away from his body with his hands under her arms. Her tiny body is covered in them.  She is looking at him with no sound or anything.

"So what do you like to do? You like sleep?" As if answering him, She yawns opening her petal like tiny lips.

"Yeah, I hope your pain reduces. So that you can sleep." His eyes are on her lips now. Ahjusshi has Park Sooyoung's lips and chin.

"You have some hair now. You had none when you were born." He remarks after seeing the thick  and small patch on her head. "Oh well, You would look different with hair, I think."

Deiji blinks. He lowers her and the very second she screams, making him take her up again. She is silent then and there.

"Wow. You are quite stubborn." To which Deiji bares her toothless molars.

"And have no teeth." Namjoon smirks.

Joy smiles widely at their "one way" conversation. Her glee encourages her to work harder.

"Not bored? Lying around? Only sleeping or drinking milk?" Namjoon lies halfway one the bed.

Deiji squeaks.

"Yup. I thought so, Ahjusshi."

Around 3 a.m. Joy stands up and stretches. She looks at the father and daughter who are now lying on the bed.

"Namjoon. I am done with the presentation. I'll go and check on Aera." She sees that Deiji has fallen asleep and is on his chest now. The mother misses a heartbeat.

She goes to Noel's room and finds Aera to be sound asleep. After a round cuddles and kisses with some blinking and sleepy grins, Joy comes back to her room.

Namjoon has fallen asleep with Deiji on his chest. Hands wrapped around her carefully yet protectively. She cannot move her without waking them up. And they look so peaceful. She walks to the other side of the bed and lies down. She recalls the events of the afternoon till now and thanks God profusely.

She runs her fingers in their heads and remembers something. Did he call Deiji, Ahjusshi?