It’s rainy season so its always cold. Kihyun is at home since he always get sick at times like this so I’m always alone at school. I scribbles things on my book as the teacher is still not coming in. I sigh deeply as I glance at Wonho. He is doing his things again, staring outside and stay in his own world. It’s a shame that we have to keep this a secret. It’s for your own good, he said. He scared that Hyemi might find out and ruin my reputation in school. I should have expect this sooner. The door suddenly slammed open and everyone went quiet. I turn to my classmate and follow their gaze toward the door frame- where the Hyemi stands, looking angry.
 

Her sharp gaze is on me and by then I already know she is looking for me. “Yah, Lee Yubi !” She screams as she head straight to my desk, pushing everything out of her way. I flinched everytime she throws thing the ground. “I told you not to mess with me !” She grab my book on the desk and throw it to the air.
 

I just sit there, trying not to fight with her. I hate fighting and thats the fact. She grab me by my collar and make me stands on my feet, making the desk move and make a screeching sound. I close my eyes and sigh, at the fact that I have to faced this girl again., “What do you want ?” I said as I gritted my teeth. She scoffed with his rolled eyes, “What do you think I want ? You keep flirting with my boyfriend and thats mean you are messing with me !”
 

I push her off me, she stumble on her feet but manage to stay alert. “Yah !” She screams and about to do something to me- when I see someone step in in front of me. I look at his back and all the burden on my shoulder disappear.
 

“Wonho !” Hyemi whined as she run toward Wonho and hug him. I feels my heart burning at the sight. Jealousy. So, this is how it feels like. It feels like hours the time she hugs him and I almost think Wonho are going to let that happen, and that thought breaks me. He grab her hand and push him off her. “Stop it, Kim Hyemi” He said.
 

“W-Wonho oppa” She pout her lips. “Whose your oppa ? You’re older than me, Hyemi, and I never said that you are my girlfriend” He said as she frowned, almost look like she’s going to cry anytime soon. “In fact,-” Wonho turn his head toward me and held my hand. His warm fingers slipped in between mine and my heart flutters. “-Yubi is my girl” He said as I stands next to him.
 

The whole class started to whisper around and a few even clapped their hands. I look down as I feels my cheeks blushing. Hyemi stomps her feet before storming out from the class. I flinched once again when she slam the door close. “Hey”, He calls for me and I look up to his dreamy eyes, “I guess it’s not a secret anymore” He softly smiles and I just nod as I said a simple thanks to him.
 

It seems like he don’t want to let go of my hand and we ended up talking to each other until the school ended. I guess Kihyun has to change his seat later.

 

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“What ? !”

“Kihyun, I can explain” I said as I hold onto his hand. “You date Wonho and the whole school know, Yubi ! What do you think are you doing ?” He said with his angry face. “Y-yah.. Kihyun. Don’t be mad at me.. I’m just-”
 

“I told you many times, Yubi. Why are you doing this ?” He cut my words as he keep on his rant. I play with my fingers and look down to the ground, “It’s because I like him..”
 

“Have you seen our friends who was in love before ?” He ask and I nod, “Remember what happen in just a few weeks ?” I nod once again, “The guys hurt them” He said, “-and he will do the same to you”
 

“No, I trust him. Wonho won’t hurt me-” “Do you know him enough to be sure of that ?”
 

“Kihyun.. you’re too much” I said as my eyes trembled. He keep on screaming to my face saying this and that wrong- when I am here just for him, to make sure he is alright.. but why am I getting all of this ? “I just want to see you here, but all you do was screaming right to my face” I said with my tiny voice.
 

“Yubi, I am just trying to-”  “You can just cheer on me and be happy that I finally meet someone in my life.. Kihyun- when you date- have I ever stopping you before ? No, right ? Because I am happy for you. Eventhough you always abandoned me and spent your times dating with those girls” I said as tears finally fall down on my cheeks.
 

He just stares at me with his in-disbelief face. “That.. that was different” He said, and I just lost it. “You’re selfish, Yoo Kihyun” I said as I throw the plastic that fills with two carton of milk- which supposed to be his- but I am too mad to even looking at his face. “So what if he hurts me in the end ? I always know I have you to leaned on so I’m not afraid”
 

Tears trickled down from my eyes and fell down straight to my shirt. I hiccuped as I burst into louder cries. I have a few of fears that have been haunting my life- and one of them is not having Kihyun in my daily life. I am already scared of what coming next between me and him. He looks taken aback when I cried. I really, didn’t want to cry but it hurts.
 

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