Gone

Confession

SinB pov, 

I was walking home from school with a gloomy face. Why? Here I tell you, it's because my crush which it is Yuju unnie is glaring at me. Never once in my life I saw she's glaring at someone

I don't know what happen but there's something remind me about her glares. It was when Jackson sunbaenim helping me picking all those books that scattered on the floor 

It's happen when I'm walking at the hallway while bringing my History teacher things that she ask me to help her bringing it to her office. While I was walking suddenly there's a boy ran into me and make all the books and files in my arms scattered on the floor 

That boy just bow his head and say sorry before running again, probably already late for his class. So it just leave me alone at that hallway with scattered books on the floor. I curse that boy for doing that 

Since there's no one at there that time, so I had to picking it by my own. While I was picking it suddenly there's another hands was helping me. It was Jackson sunbae hands 

"Mind if I help you?" He ask with her handsome smile that can melt every girls heart. But don't count me in, I didn't melt. I only melting with Yuju unnie smiles

"If you dont mind" I said, also smiling at him. He's being nice on me so I should reply with the same 

"Here, be careful next time. Ok?" He's handing me those books before ruffling my hair, I has to admitted that I felt so uncomfortable with his act but not wanting he's sad, I'm just smiling 

"Thank you sunbaenim" I said with my usual smile 

"No need to say thanks, I love helping a beautiful girl" he's winking and I swear that I felt gross. Really gross. I just let out my awkward grin 

"Jackson, coach was looking for you" suddenly I heard a very familiar voice from my back. That voice was belong to Yuju unnie

I look at her but she gave me her cold look. Her face was so cold, didn't warm and lovely like always. I smile at her but she replied me with a glare. Felt like there's a dark cloud was being on top of my head that time

"Coach? Ouh, I forgot about it. Well, a beautiful girl like her was standing in front of me, making me forgot about everything" I just feel like want to punch Jackson sunbae face on that time 

"She just a kid. Stop flirting now" Yuju unnie said coldly, make me feel like want to crying 

"So what if she's a kid? I like her" 

"She don't deserve you" 

"Well, if she doesn't deserve me? Who deserve her?" 

"No one" once again Yuju unnie words make my world cracking and crushing 

Without bow or any single word, I just leave them without look behind. Right after I put those books in my teacher office room, I got to toilet for washing my face 

My eyes were red and water has forming in my eyes. If I didn't control myself, I'll must be cry for sure. It's hurt me a lot with what Yuju unnie did awhile ago

I'm confused, really confused. We're just fine before, we'll changing our smiles whenever our eyes met. Both of us maybe never talk to each other but I know that there's something was attaching between us

Maybe it was my fault too. I was too hoping that she'll like me like the way I did. I'm keeping to high dream that obviously I couldn't reach 

"SinB unnie!" Aish, who the hell is calling me right? Don't she know that I was having a heart broken right now??  I stop from walking then turn around to find the source of voice who calls me

It's Arin, one of my classmate. She's younger than me but people said that she's too smart, that's why she jump into my class that should she attend on next year 

"Ouh, Arin ah. Why are you calling me?" I'm asking her warmly, even though I'm sad right now. This cute girl shouldn't get involve in my state

"Hi unnie, I just want to ask if you and Umji unnie will come to my house this evening" I was frowning for awhile. What the hell did me and Umji wanna do at her house 

"Seems like you forgot about it. We're a teammate for science project. Remember?" Arin said with chuckle make me slap my own forehead 

"Yea, yea. I'm sorry, I forgot about it but don't worry. Me and Umji will come to your house this evening" 

"Ok, I'll ask my mom to make some cookies for us" Cookies?? How old I am?? Six?? But it doesn't bad at all, who will reject free cookies right?? 

 "Ok, but make sure your mom make some extra cookies since Umji unnie is eating a lot"

"Ouh, that's not a big deal at all" Arin smile till revealing her white teeth 

After that we're walking in silent until Arin clearing , gain an attention from me

"Uhm, are you ok unnie? You aren't like usual" what does she mean by that? Is my gloomy face too shown? 

"Why did you asking?" With soft laugh I ask 

"Nothing, it just your face. Aren't as bright as always. You look....sad. May I know why?" My crush was glared at me and gave me her cold side, what should I feel other than sad?? I just want to say that but she's too kid for me to understand my feeling. She's still younger than me, so she's practically a kid 

"Nothing, just thinking about something" someone to be exact 

"Ouh, uhm.. Is it about your love one?" Seriously??? How did this kid knew it? 

"Hahaha well, a bit" What? I'm just being honest here 

"Ouh, you know what unnie. Just leave someone who didn't appreciate you, there's still has someone who love and like you with a whole heart"

"Who?" Of course I'm a bit weird, nobody was try to courting me before. Or, I never notice it since I already got my eyes on Yuju unnie? *heavy sigh* remembering her name make me remember about today 

"My sister. She like you a lot. No, no, no. She love you but she's too scare for confess her feeling to you since she can't be near you, or else she'll be nervous"

"Who is your sister?" Arin sister like me?? Since when did Arin has a sister?? I seriously need to focus more on real life than my imagination world with Yuju 

"Secret~~" aish, this kid 

"Ouh, so you're playing a secret with me now??"

This girl just grinning as an answer. Arin somehow remind me about someone. Her bang hair, cheeky grin, bright smile

Who else the bang hair girl that I know right? She remind me about Yuju unnie. If only she didn't glare at me today, I must be will not be this sad *heavy sigh*

"Stop sighing unnie, you're like an old lady if you did that" I just ruffling Arin hair, if I can't ruffling Yuju unnie hair, Arin hair can be too 

"So, which year did your sister study?"

"She's in last year, she'll graduate later"

"Ouh, what's her name? Who know, if I've met her before?"

"Her name? Hurm, I can't tell you that one but it's fine. Since you're my soon to be sister in law, I'll give you some clue" soon to be sister in law?? Is this girl crazy? 

"The clue is?" I'm getting impatient already 

"The clue is, she's a Choi" Arin was laughing while I can just gritting my teeth tightly. I just feel like want to kick this kid but thinking that she's someone daughter so I just let her laughing 

"Yea, laugh.Laugh as much as you want. I'll going home now" I just walk away but then she's chasing from behind 

"Unnie wait, ok I'm sorry. I was just teasing you just now"

"It's fine" how can I stay mad with this cutiepie? 

"But unnie, I swear. My sister really love you, she's having a crush on you since the first time she laid her eyes on you. Maybe you should forget about someone that has make you sad today and starts getting knowing my sister"

I was froze for a while. Arin ask me to forget about someone that I've having a crush on her since I'm 7 for her sister that I don't even know who she is?? This girl is really something 

But there's true in Arin words. Why would I still hoping for someone that obviously don't want to have me in her life? Should I just gone from her life? 

 

 

 

On the evening, me, Umji and Arin completing are our project at her house living room when the door of their house swing open 

"I'm home" that voice. It make me lifting my head from the paper in front me then look at the door direction 

"Unnie, eomma is in the kitchen" did Arin just call Yuju unnie as unnie?? 

"Ouh, really? Ok. I'll be in my room if she ask about me" Yuju unnie then look at me

She's probably a bit shock with my sudden presence in her house. Our eyes are met but only just for awhile when she broke it first before walk away to her room at upstairs 

"Yuju sunbae is your sister Arin??????" Umji asking and I can't be more grateful than that 

"Yup. Uhm, that's my sister SinB unnie" Arin say to me and I suddenly remembered about her words this afternoon 

"My sister really love you" that's words was echoing in my mind 

Yuju unnie?? Lik-love me???? She's having a crush on me?? So that mean, my love isn't one sided love?? Oh my God, only God know how happy I'm feeling right now but why did she's so cold to me? 

Is she jealous because of Jackson sunbae? That's why she's suddenly becomes so cold to me? But why did she didn't say it more earlier? 

And why did she's the one who broke our eye contact just now? Is she still angry? Or she's feeling nervous when our eyes met? Did she also feel the same beat as my heart feel? 

I can't concentrate to my project at all. Most of it are being made by Umji and Arin. All my mind are occupied with Yuju unnie. Is Arin telling me the truth? That her sister is like me, or she just want to tease or making fun of me? 

"Girls! Are you have done with your works?" Arin mom voice make me awake from my world 

"Just a little bit more eomma" Arin answer her mother 

"Come and eat first. Arin, go and get your unnie. Ask her to join us here" 

"Ok, uhm unnie. Is it fine if we stop here?"

"It's fine, I actually hungry too and I'm sure that SinB also hungry. Right SinB? Yah!" Umji smack my back head when I'm still in my empty gaze 

"What? What?"

"We're stop at here for now because I want to eat" Umji rolled her eyes at me 

"Ouh, ok. Let's stop now" I said while rubbing my back head 

 

The atmosphere at dining table was so awkward. Just for me I and Yuju unnie I guess. Since the others are happily having a good talks with each other. Unlike them, me and Yuju unnie are just quiet 

I must be lie if I said that I fail to caught she's taking a glance on me. She's sitting across me and want to know how can I I caught she's taking a glance on me? 

It's because I also was taking a glance on her, so whenever our eyes are met, she'll quickly look away. Maybe she's shy since I'm also shy tho 

Yuju unnie, is it true that you love me? If yes, please saying it. I want to hear it from your own mouth. Please stop making me wait for more but if you're promised to protecting me, I'll wait. Patiently till you finally ready for protecting me 

But if you keep on quiet like this, maybe I'll gone from your life. I'll let this feeling gone without I even realize it. So please, hold me tighter if you feel the same as my feels to you 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter 3, check! 

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RedSapph
#1
Chapter 7: Yey sequel ^o^ thanks unnie~~~~
Cucumberbaby
#2
Chapter 7: Im happy *dancing*
Buddy_yan #3
Chapter 7: Thank you for sequel author-nim!
hmzhh_r
#4
Chapter 7: Thank you for sequel author-nim! I enjoy it and I hope you will make sinju story again. ^o^
RedSapph
#5
Chapter 6: *raises my foot* XD I remember my first love while reading this lol
hmzhh_r
#6
Chapter 6: ME!
SayTsuki
#7
Chapter 6: Author...
I'm sorry it sounds a bit inconsiderate to you.
But this story seems to have many amazing things. Jackson may be in the middle, perhaps Yuju may also have suitors and many things that oppose their relationship
Still need to get their first kiss.
I just want to imagine Krystal mocking SinB xD
The story has much more development ... And you are an excellent writer with an impressive imagination. So I know you can do a great job with a long sequel.
Hugs and thanks for this nice story
Cucumberbaby
#8
Chapter 6: This story is good eventho it was really short but i didnt mind if you want to make a sequel for this story *since i know youre busy with the other story too* but if you like to do it , then i should be waiting for it XD
Jungminah18 #9
Chapter 6: sequel pleaseeee
kim030989 #10
Chapter 5: It's so good! Sequel please~^^