~previous chappy~

"i cant take it anymore!!!!!" he yelled

"ljoe soooooooo cruel..."

"shh..shh..everything will gonna b fine hyung..." i whisper closer to his ears as he still crying on me...hidin his face on my chest...n i just let us to stay like that for a moment...

BAMMMMMM!!!!! 

suddenly...i heard a loud of BAMM!!!!! came from d bathroom...."what's goin on in there??" i rushed to it

i kick kick kick d door till it opened...as everythings inside was reveal...n it make my eyes got widen...

"i know that chunji did'nt cared about ljoe for this two weeks...n i know ljoe tries to clinge on him...but he was rejected...n i also find out that chunji changed because of his parents objection.."

Changjo POV

he's still in my embrace....

everything happen now..making him sad...i understand that...it remind me of ricky n me..when we'r both broke up before...it's pathetic

~flashback~

"wae..wae changjo...??? i luv u...u know that..."

"i'm tired wif u...i'm sick of u...i don think i can bare wif u anymore...lets just finish this"

"b...bb..but..."

i leave him there...he seems too shocked by my sudden request...yet he cried....n i hate it when seeing d person that i luv much crying like that...but what can i do....i have to...i have to leave him...coz that was his noona last wished...she wish that i could leave her younger brother n let him live as a normal guy n not a gay...she hope that before she closed her eyes forever...she can see her little brother to have a happy life wif a GIRL...

finally...ricky done that...after 3 months..he found himself a gurl...n he date her....them both looks like a sweet couple...i felt my heart aches..but seeing my lil luver happiness...it healed me much...

but then...i heard that they'r broking up...i don know d reason is...n a month after that...noona's dying....once again...i watch ricky crying...

however...thanks to chunjoe...

they told me everything....

before noona's dead...ljoe hyung tried to explain to her about everything happen between me n ricky...n chunji hyung told her d gurl that ricky's date with was just his classmate that he paid to b his girlfriend...for making his noona happy seeing him date wif a gurl...but...deep in his heart...he's feelin soooo much pain...he luv me...only me...

that's how noona understand that...n she's feelin sorry towards her lil bro...

a week after that...we'r back together again...

~end of flashback~

i did'nt hear any sob from chunji hyung anymore....maybe he's stop crying...

"chunji hyungggg.." i whisper to him "lets get in ok...u must be sooo tired rite..." i suggest

"i...i don think i can face ljoe rite now..." he say as sobbing overcomin him again

"shh shh...don be like this hyung...ljoe hyung will b fine...we'll help him to remember bout u guys ne..." i coaxed him

he's nodding...so then..i gripped his wrist...n lead him in...

as we'r entered d house...i heard a loud of kicking sound comin from upstairs...n i heard a sound of door breaks...

"what's goin on upsatair???"

"should we go check it???"

as we'r goin to rush upstair...i heard CAP hyung screaming ljoe hyung name...then...he screamed for us loudly..hoping that we can hear him from outside...

me n chunji hyung running to d bathroom with our maximum speed...as we reached there...we saw CAP hyung was holding ljoe hyung tight in his arm...

CAP POV

finally...door breaking....n everything inside revealed...

i shocked as i saw  a lot of bloods on d floor as it's flowing from ljoe wrist...

'www...wwhat d..." i run towards him...he's now lying on d floor lifelessly wif d nonstop flowing blood...

i pulled him into my arms...i hold him tight...real tight....i tapped his chin...hope that he will awake as i called his name frequently...but..he does'nt...i even cant felt him breathing...oh NOOOO....GOD please spared him...he cant die now....

i'm soooo blank....i don what to do...i'm too shocked...as i cried soooo loud...all i can do is just calling for d other two outside....so then i screamed their names with my maximum volume...fortunately...i heard rushing stepped comin over...

"hyung...what...." changjo tried to asked but suddenly stop when he saw d condition in d bathroom....

chunji running toward us...he did'nt say anything...his eyes becme sooooooooooo wide...as he pulled ljoe body...n hug him tightly....

tears flowing rapidly from his eyes....chunji tears...were flowed as much as ljoe bloods flowing from his wrist...

changjo came closer as he ljoe hair n place his hand on ljoe chest...

"hyung....lets tke him to d hospital now...he's still alive..." changjo suddenly said

"but...but.."

"there's no but anymore hyung...no matter if he like it or not...ljoe hyung must be sent there quick...his life is more important now..."

i did'nt replying him...as i tried to stood up n reaching for d phone to call an ambulance...but then...i heard niel n ricky chit chatting

"we'r home..."

"hyung....hyung..." ricky calling for us as i can heard his stepped closer

"hyung...where u guys...???" he opened my door room but found nothing inside

changjo stood up...n ran towards ricky

"ahhh changjo...ur shocking me..."

"great timing...where's GD hyung???"

"he's downstair...wae...???"

"i want u to b calm...ok..." *changjo touch his luver cheeks* "now.....tell GD hyung..to prepare d car...we'r goin to sent ljoe hyung to d hospital.."

"but...wae??? did'nt dr. lee told us that ljoe hyung is just having fever...??"

"hey...u guys...i wanna made some porridge for chunji hyung...do u want some...n btw...is ljoe hyung awake?? i think i need to prepare for him too" niel suddenly interrupted

"no need niel..."

"where's them???" GD appeared

"hhh...hhy...hyung...pl...please prepa...re d car..." chunji walked out from d bathroom as ljoe lifeless body was carried by him bridally

"ljoe...what...is...there's....blood....wrist..." unproper sentence spilled out from GD words

"ljoe hyung...." both niel n ricky say in unison

"quick...we need to take him to d hospital..." changjo gesture to everyone to b quick...as all of them running downstairs n get  to d car

i'm still in shocked...i cant b calm as well...as my brain cant working properly...

in my head...it just ljoe image wif blood flowing...this is my first time i've seen his doin sucha thing...

once again...i tried to get up....but i falled...again...how miserable i am...i'm sucha bad hyung...i found him first...lying wif soooo mny bloods on d floor...but yet...i don know what to do...this is just d sme thing happened to my lil bro 10 years ago...when i found him lying on d floor wif soooo many bubbles out of his mouth....n all that i can do....is...just...set him into my lap n called for his name...as i watched...him dying...slowly...

i turned behind me...there's no one...

i'm pretty sure...they'r alredy on d way to d hospital...they might b forgot bout anything else coz we'r all tooooo panic rite now...except for changjo...i'm glad we'r having him here...his calmness will save ljoe...i have confidence on that

"i need to go to hospital too rite.." i asked myself as i get up...n this time...i succeed of getting up...finally...i can calm myself too...

as i stood up...i saw penknife laid on d floor...n many many blood stick on it...

i took d knife..."when this thing place here?? n how did ljoe hve this???" i wonder as i walked out d room..grabbed my phone n ran outside...i hope i can reached to d hospital quick..n wish for a good news...

"please be safe hunnie..." i set these words fixedly in my mind...