A letter from Sanha,

Dear Minhyuk,

You asked me a few days ago what was wrong, and I had replied that I was fine. Being the best friend you are, you told me that if I have something on my mind I could just write everything on a piece of paper and let it all out. I'm gonna take your advice and maybe after I write this I could give this to you or maybe burn it...

So here is the thing:

I'm gay.

Yes, and I know that you are too,

You probably realized that before you moved here, but I won't ask.

And guess what?

I fell in love with the president, Lee Dongmin.

Yes, again I like him,

And it's not some silly crush.

Crushes are unreachable in a sense, 
But my love for Dongmin won't ever change or fade.

I know for sure he's not gay.

He has only dated girls,

And had only liked girls.

Tell me Minhyuk,

Why is that love is unfair?

He'll never give me love,

And I will always be unsatisfied.

I'm sorry for loving you, Dongmin.

You know who I am,

Yet you don't.

After writing this, Sanha sat at his table in the dorm. Thinking back about all the things he could have done before Dongmin started to go on dates with other girls.

It's unfair Sanha wrote,

I hate myself. Please tell me I am not I love with him.

Angry with himself and the fact that he could not face his own feelings. His anger consisted mostly how he was facing a crisis at this moment and how he really tell someone. Why couldn't he tell someone?  It was easier to say it then to do it 
let alone confess them, Sanha grabbed his papers and ran out if his dorm,
 Not caring that he didn't have a jacket or his keys to his dorm, he slammed his door shut and just ran on his campus until he couldn't run anymore. 

But even then, he just started walking and with his luck 
It started to rain.

Sanha stopped walking altogether, he just stood there.

Him in the rain with just his school uniform.

He had left the blazer of his uniform in the dorm.

He shivered at the cold and continued to walk even