6; friendships (1/2)

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1st grade

I was bullied. I don't know why but other kids started to make fun of me and it never ended.

It never did.

I was that kind of kid that had a frail body.

I was weak.

And I had no friends. I don't know how to talk to someone without feeling so awkward and afraid.

Yes, I was afraid to talk to people.

It was all connected.

2nd grade

I did bad last year so I was moved to a lower section.

I was distracted.

But my classmates now were worse than my previous ones.

Now they push me around. And start beating me up.

But they never leave obvious marks.

I am known to have a very strict father and grandmother.

I am powerless but they know that my parents will do everything to protect me.

But that's the point.

I don't tell them.

Because I feel like I'm a burden. I always was.

And I don't want to add more responsibilities to them. Like guarding me at school and such.

I want to handle this alone.

But I did have friends. I mean, I treat them as friends. They talk to me and that's enough for me.

3rd grade

It continues.

I never had a peaceful day.

Exceptions are when my parents visit me at school.

But that's just it.

And only books were my comfort. It holds all the words that I can't and won't say. It holds all the feelings that I am feeling. It holds the message that I want people to say to me.

But I was caught.

My father noticed that I always get two shares of my lunch.

That's because bullies get my lunch so I learned to bring two.

When I had no chocie but to confess it to him, he let my grandmother go to school and report it to the principal. The bullies were called.

And nobody approached me ever since.

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