(quote from Poems )

5; soulmates

Taekook or Vkook;;

He was there. He was always there from the start. I was just too stupid, too naive to realize.

I have been blinded too much from my love to Jimin.

I have loved Park Jimin for a long time now. Yet he never returned his feelings for me.

And I destroyed myself couple of times because of it.

I smoked, I drank, I went to parties, I went wasted, I tried cutting and felt good about it.

It was horrible.

And everyone knew it wasn't right.

Love wasn't supposed to be destructible yet I let it consume me and my sanity.

Let Jimin rule my whole world.

Actually, he didn't mean harm. He was nice, instead. And that's what always kills me. He was nice to me, too nice, because I am his friend /best friend/ and that's all that I'm gonna be for him.

I was miserable.

My friends threatened to leave me if I continued what I was doing. But what could I do? I was tied to my love for Jimin. Or so I thought.

I realized it 4 years too late...

That I was suffering too much, even though I should be living my life happily.

My friends were right, that I should come back.

But that was only for months. It didn't really work.

And one by one, my friends changed. They still talk to me, yes, but with wariness. With worry. With pity. And I hated it. Hated how they would look at me like I had no chance.

Because maybe I really didn't have one.

But he stayed.

Kim Taehyung stayed. And it was stupid for him. Because he was the only one left. So I had no one with me but him. I would pour my doubts, my pain, my suffering to him and him alone.

Maybe that's why the others got tired of me. I was all problems. And never showed signs of coming back up.

But he wa