"Wonsik, I have to talk to you." Yes, he was confident before when he approached Wonsik and went outside of the school building with him and normally he still would be with every other person that behaved like the latter. But just being alone with Wonsik was somehow different. Wonsik had something that stole every spark of confidence from Jaehwan. But this time, Jaehwan couldn't let Wonsik win.    "What do you want from me Jaehwannie? It has to be something important since you leave your friend alone right now."    Wonsik started the conversation with a slight smirk on his face, signalizing Jaehwan that he had no interest in some serious talk.   In this moment exactly this smirk of Wonsik made Jaehwan tense up a little, since he knew that it was right what Wonsik said. Hongbin and Jaehwan never spent a break time apart since they met each other in their freshman year. That's why Jaehwan was sure, Honbin must be feeling lonely and worried right now. Since he couldn't know that Hongbin had a person already to spend the break time with, the whole situation with Wonsik made the feeling of guilt appear again.    Guilt for leaving Hongbin alone and for making Hongbin worried, even if he as the hyung should be the one to take care of the younger.   This guilt he felt towards Hongbin, was the one he hated the most, that he wanted to get rid of so badly. Furthermore Jaehwan didn't want this guilt to destroy his strong bond to Hongbin and ... he also didn't want to lie to himself anymore and just finally to be honest with himself.   Honesty. That's what he was mostly feared of but one of his biggest desires. He knew he always would be accepted by Hongbin to be the person that he was, but other people would look at him with judging eyes. Jaehwan never had the strength before to protect Hongbin just because exactly this honesty and sincerity for his own person, to himself, missed.    So now it was time to finally talk. Not too much thinking anymore, no fear anymore. Just being strong, honest and free of guilt.    After hesistating a bit Jaehwan just nodded slightly, as a sign of agreement for himself, not even visible for Wonsik to blurt out what he always wanted to say.   "What I want from you? Just you to stop this stupid s*** you do and say to Hongbin. It annoys me, that you can't just leave him alone. Why do you even care, whom he likes?"    He had a sarcastic tone in his slightly raised voice. Actually it wasn't his plan to get rude, but maybe that was better than radiating fear.    "Why does it even care  you ?"   Wonsik simply responed in the same caustic tone.   "You never said a thing, it doesn't even bother him and it never seemed like it bothers  you at all. So why are you now suddenly telling me to stop?"   After a short time he used for letting out a sigh, Wonsik continued his speech.   "Let me tell you, Jaehwannie."    Yes, Wonsik had surely in mind to provoke him. At least that was the thing Kim Wonsik in front of him was the best in.    "Is there even a reason you support him now?There can't be a reason why you first were that silent and now are wanting me to explain everything to you why I...-"    Jaehwan couldn't help but gulped at Wonsik's words. He knew that in the words of the younger was a grain of truth somewhere. But accepting it and hearing it from someone else's mouth made everything worse.   Seemed like he really was weak in the past and messed up a lot.  There was a short thought in Jaehwan's mind. Now or never.    "I like men"    Yes, there was it, he interrupted Wonsik with the words he always wanted to say and to be proud of. It was a fact he had hidden his whole life from his family, his class mates and even from himself. It was a fight to finally admit it to himself a while ago. He always had some doubts because he never was attracted to girls, but since Hongbin was his friend who started to speak with him about the topic of love, Jaehwan someday realized that liking men was something natural and something he shouldn't lie to himself about anymore.    He merely should have been honest to himself earlier and he wouldn't cause so much pain for himself and for Hongbin. It's because he could have been able to support his friend and not bothering him with his own inner conflicts.    At least he should have been strong as a Hyung. And now, he can be.    "And why do you have the urge to tell me?"   "I- I just don't want Hongbin to suffer alone. It's unfair, and I can't handle this as a friend."    Jaehwan stuttered. He was nervous, It felt like his fast heart beat would be noticeable for everyone. Still, he didn't regret anything he just said. Much more it was pride that Jaehwan started to feel because he could be strong now. He couldn't change the past, he knew it, but the future was something he was able to influence and to create.   "So? You're together for real?"   It was an unusual short question for Wonsik. He surely seemed to be confused by the whole situation.    "No, we're not..."    Jaehwan gave Wonsik just the most obvious respond.   "So you're going to tell me that you came out to me now, just to support your friend? Isn't that stupid of you? He will suffer much more, when he see's that you suffer too. So, maybe..."    That was more like him. Wonsik changed his calm voice to a slightly threatining questioning voice and took one step forward to Jaehwan, so that their faces were just some centimeters apart from each other. While this sudden action made Jaehwan blush a little, it seemed like Wonsik gathered himself together again. All the confusion seemed to be gone.   "maybe... , you like someone? Someone that you can't like? And y'know, people say, when you tell someone you like something it is a relief. And your reddish cheeks also tip your hands.", Wonsik continued with pointing a finger at Jaehwan's cheek.     Jaehwan's thoughts went crazy. What was Wonsik talking about? Was he that easy to read? At this point he was about to take a step back as a mechanism of self-protection but was held in place as Wonsik grabbed his shoulders and forced him to hold eye contact. Jaehwan couldn't help but kept breaking it. If he knew that this situation would turn out like that, he would have never talked with Wonsik.    'I just wanted to help my friend, right?' Jaehwan thought, even if he knew that this wasn't his only reason for starting this whole conversation. He was going to back down again.   Realizing  the real thing that mattered for him ri