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‘Seulpeohajima no no no honjaga anya no no no (don’t be sad no no no, you’re not alone no no no)

Eonjenanananaege hangsang bichi dwae jun geudae (you always became a light for me)

Nae soneul jabayo ije jigeum dagawa gidae (hold my hand, come and lean on me)

Eonjena himi dwae julge (I’ll always be your strength)’

He sang along to the song that echoing through the empty house while cutting potatoes into small pieces. He was still preparing dinner although it’s later than usual because he got emergency call from Gikwang-hyung that one of the teacher couldn’t come and asked him to substitute. The class ended later than his usual schedule making him late to do the groceries too. But he hoped Yoongi wouldn’t mind waiting for the food to be done, talking about Yoongi why isn’t he’s home now. He glanced at the clock on the wall, showing the time Yoongi always got home, just then the song that playing from his phone stopped and Yoongi’s ringtone filling the room. He put the knife he’s holding and wiped his hand with his apron walking toward the table where his phone is. He swiped the screen, lifted the device near his ears.

“Yoongi…?” his sentence sounds like a question but Yoongi answered nonetheless.

“Jiminie….” He heard shuffling and rustling that sounded like paper scraping against paper. “Uh, I think I’m not going home until later this night.” Yoongi’s voice is calm but he still sensed the guilt and exhaustion there.

“Really?” he said struggling to suppress his disappointment.

“Yeah. Sorry there’s some paper that I must finished tonight.” The rustling has stopped and he can hear Yoongi steady breathing.

“Mmm, It’s okay. Have you eaten?” he asked while looking at the food in the table and at the counter that still had ingredient out there.

“I ordered take out, maybe they’ll be here in some minutes. You?” Yoongi asked.

“I’m cooking the food just now, I’ll eat after this. Yoongi, eat all the food you ordered no leftover and be sure to eat the vitamin I bought for you, okay?” He said fondly while smiling.

“Okay got it.” He can sense Yoongi’s smile from the tone. “I’ll eat all the food.” Yoongi said.

“….What time will you be back?” he asked lips turned down a little.

The other line got quiet for a mere five seconds and he can imagine how Yoongi’s face right now. “Maybe around midnight, I’ll finish it before midnight. Don’t wait up Jimin, don’t worry.”

“Okay. Love you, Yoongi-hyung” He said with a smile.

“Love you too, Jiminie.” Yoongi said and ended the call.

He stared at the phone screen, it’s the picture of him and Yoongi at their wedding. Yoongi gummy smile while he smiled brightly with eye smile, the two of them looks so happy. He smiled fondly looking at it, but his smile slowly gone when he remembers the conversation just now. Yoongi’s going to work overtime again, tonight is exactly a week Yoongi is working overtime. He’s sad and disappointed that Yoongi always said he’s working overtime when it’s near his usual work time not at the morning when he’s going to work. Yoongi always said ‘I have to finish this paper’ or ‘my co-worker is sick I must replace their work’ or ‘my boss give extra work today’. He believed Yoongi’s word but with how distant Yoongi’s been with him this past week he started to think irrationally like what if Yoongi is tired with him. The insecurity inside him began to overwhelm his thought, because usually Yoongi will tell him or complain if he’s tired but Yoongi got home around midnight sometimes after midnight and will go straight to bed. Yoongi’s still hug him in his sleep but in the morning he will wake up, clean up, eat then go to work not even talk to him about his previous day. Without noticing his tears started to flow down his cheeks, some of it dropped at the phone screen.

‘Majimak niga barabol sarang (I’ll become the last love)

Ijen naega dwae julge (that you can look upon)

Oh

Seulpeohajima no no no honjaga anya no no no (don’t be sad no no no, you’re not alone no no no)

Eonjenanana naege hangsang bichi dwae jun geudae (you always became a light for me)’

Just now that he realized the song is still playing, he sobbed processing the meaning of the song. He feels sad and alone right now, despite the song that has an excited beat and supporting means. It just makes him sadder because he feels the opposite.

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He stood in front of his husband that just now finished wearing the shoes. Yoongi turned back to him and leaned down making him closing his eyes. He expected the soft lips of Yoongi on his own lips instead he felt Yoongi lips touch his forehead skin. He opened his eyes after Yoongi drew back.

“I’m going now.” Yoongi said with a faint smile.

“Take care.” He said with sweet smile and waved his hand.

When the door closed his smile turned into a sad smile, like the day before Yoongi didn’t talk about his previous day or his work. He sighed and walked back to the kitchen opening the fridge getting his chocolate bar because he needs chocolate to cheer himself up. He slumped down on the couch, reaching for the remote and the TV. Today is his day off, usually Yoongi will finished work early and join him lounging around at the couch or bed. But he didn’t sure if Yoongi will go home early today, the thought made him more upset so he opened the wrapper of the chocolate and started to eat them. After one hour of watching TV, he started his daily chores around the house. He was in the middle of vacuuming the living room there’s someone on the door ringing the bell. He turn off the device and walked to the front door, peeking through the peep hole and seeing Jaejoong-hyung there. He opened the door and greeted the older with smile, Jaejoong-hyung is not alone he’s with his son Hyunsoo. He greeted the boy and received a wave from the boy and a smile back.

“Jimin-ah, I’m asking for your help. Are you busy today?” Jaejoong asked while patting Hyunsoo head.

“I’m free today, hyung. What’s the matter?” he asked while looking at Jaejoong and Hyunsoo who’s fiddling with his toy.

“Can you take care of Hyunsoo today, I have an emergency meeting right now and my sister can’t do it too.” Jaejoong said with a sheepish smile.

“Okay hyung. I’ll be glad to spend the time with Hyunsoo” he smiled and crouched down to the boy level. “because Hyunsoo is a good boy right?” he asked the boy.

Hyunsoo looked at him with innocent eyes and nodded. He chuckled stood up again to face Jaejoong. “Thank you Jimin-ah!” Jaejoong said while side hugging him.

Jaejoong give him the necessaries for Hyunsoo, giving the boy speech about manner and telling him to call if something happened. After Jaejoong gone, he leads the boy to the living room, putting the bag from Jaejoong on the couch and making the boy sat the carpeted floor. He moved the coffee table to the corner to make more room. He looked at the little boy still seated on the floor, playing with his toy making cute sounds. He smiled seeing the adorable act. Hyunsoo is Jaejoong and Yunho son, not adopted but Jaejoong carried the baby because apparently male can get pregnant. He still remember the first time Jaejoong talked to him about it, about the pregnancies and Yunho and his son. Then he got to meet Hyunsoo afterward, the boy still cannot talk much, just broken sentence. Hyunsoo is one and half years old, the boy has both Yunho and Jaejoong features. It’s not the first time he took care of Hyunsoo, Jaejoong and Yunho can be busy for a day and their relative can’t do it too and he will gladly spend his time with Hyunsoo. There’s one time he took care Hyunsoo with Yoongi too and his husband is really flustered if he couldn’t understand what Hyunsoo wants or when Hyunsoo is crying. But when Yoongi’s laughing and playing with Hyunsoo he got this weird feeling not an uncomfortable but a pleasant feeling.

He snapped from his thought by Hyunsoo “Min…Jimin…” Hyunsoo is calling his name. Hyunsoo already learned his name and can spell it right.

“Yes, Hyunsoo. What’s the matter dear?” Jimin said while sitting near Hyunsoo.

“Soo is….hu-hung-ry, cookie? Cookie?” Hyunsoo calling himself Soo and his effort to form sentence is really adorable.

“You want to eat snack?” he asked the little boy earned an excited nod. “Okay, wait a minute please.” He said reaching to the bag that have Hyunsoo snack and other food supply. He pulled out a box of baby biscuit, and turn back to Hyunsoo giving the boy one piece of the cookie. “Here you go, one cookie for Soo.” He said with a playful tone.

“Tuh-thank you!” Hyunsoo said while grabbing the biscuit and bite at it, chewed slowly and flashing him a bright smile.

After two bite cookie again he noticed that he didn’t finished vacuuming the room. He placed Hyunsoo at the couch, turning on the TV select the channel that has a cartoon playing and continuing his chore. Then he persuaded Hyunsoo to take a nap by staying at the boy side until he sleeps then slowly go out of the bedroom after making sure the pillows surrounding the bed to prevent Hyunsoo from falling down. He do the laundry and come back to check Hyunsoo, the boy still asleep. He climbed slowly to the bed, not wanting to wake the boy and lay beside Hyunsoo. He tucked the hair at Hyunsoo face and run his finger through the boy soft hair making the latter nuzzling to the pillow. He moved his hand to the boy back rubbing soothingly, smiled fondly seeing the peaceful sight in front of him. His eyelids feel heavy and he decided to close his eyes. Resting his mind and body from too many thought and drifted to sleep.

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When he opened his eyes, Hyunsoo is still asleep beside him. He sat up looking to the clock and it’s near lunch, he got out of the bed and walked to the kitchen to prepare Hyunsoo fruit salad then proceed to wake the boy.

“Hyunsoo-ah…” he called the boy while rubbing the boy head. “Hyunsoo-ah, wake up.” He patted the boy cheeks softly and blowing at boy face. “It’s lunch time~ wake up~” He singsong while playing with Hyunsoo hair at the nape.

Hyunsoo stirred and opened his eyes sleepily, “….Ma?” mumbled Hyunsoo while trying to sit up. It's the boy habit when he wakes up from nap, he would call him 'Ma', he didn't feel bothered by it on the contrary he liked it. He helped the boy to straight up and his hair tenderly. “Come on dear, it’s lunch time.” he said softly seeing the boy yawn.

“Ma…” Hyunsoo said while stretched his hands up means that he wanted to be carried. He put his hands on the boy armpit and lifted the little body toward himself. One of his hands on Hyunsoo bottom to support the weight and Hyunsoo’s little hand circled around his neck while the boy resting his face on his shoulder. He walked to the kitchen and put Hyunsoo on his high chair carefully, called the boy name twice to make sure the boy is awake. After Hyunsoo opened his eyes, rubbed at them to rid the sleep he looked around and spotted his fruit salad.

“S-ssalad?” Hyunsoo asked excitedly while pointing at the said food and he nodded while smiling. “Soo wan-wants s-salad.” Hyunsoo said making a grabby hand.
“What do you say when you asked someone?” He said looking at Hyunsoo with tilted head.
“Puh-please…” Hyunsoo said with big eyes peering at him.

He smiled brightly at the boy and moved the bowl in front of Hyunsoo. “Here you go, eat slowly don’t rush it. Okay?” he said while patted Hyunsoo’s head. the boy nodded and started to eat the fruit with his little spoon.

He then prepared his own lunch and Hyunsoo bottle of milk. He just prepared a simple lunch with egg, salad and some leftover from this morning. He eat his lunch with a happy Hyunsoo that occasionally asked for his food and he gladly give the boy some piece of them. After that he spend his time at the living room playing, cuddling and watching TV with Hyunsoo. He didn’t realize it’s late in the afternoon when Jaejoong ring the bell and fetching Hyunsoo. Jaejoong apologize that he came later than he promised this morning to Hyunsoo and him but Hyunsoo shook his head slowly and said he’s having fun with him. Hearing that makes him extremely happy because he enjoyed the boy company too, he asked Jaejoong if the older need someone to take care of Hyunsoo he can help the older gladly. He’s back to the living room after Jaejoong and Hyunsoo back to their room, seated at the couch thinking that when he’s with Hyunsoo he didn’t realize the time he spend and the house become lit up. He’s not lonely when there’s Hyunsoo, and that thought made him want to have child as well. His heart swelled thinking about child running through the house, giggling sound and laughter fill the room. He wanted that, especially he wanted to has child from Yoongi and his blood. Wanted to see how their child looks like, will the child take his features more or Yoongi’s. Yoongi will be a wonderful dad, maybe a bit strict but absolutely a dotting dad when their child is a girl. He chuckled when imagining that thought but thinking about Yoongi reminding him about their condition now, he’s scared if he bring this topic to Yoongi now, the man will leave him because why not. He’s so imperfect, he bet Yoongi’s tired of him now then maybe the child topic will be the pull to end them.

So, he just swallowed his thought about child and stay to please Yoongi, so he still here because Yoongi’s still care. Yoongi still come home, still said I love you through the phone and still sleeping at the same bed with him. He sighed loudly and looked up, the clock showing it’s already 7.30 pm. Yoongi usually back at 7 pm, he hope today Yoongi will not work overtime again. He got up then rummaging through the fridge to see what’s for dinner then decided today he don’t need to the convenience store. Then he walk to the bathroom, filling the tub with hot water then pick up the dried clothes and fold them neatly. After that he got back to the bathroom, stripped and submerged to the warm water. He sighed contently relaxing his strained muscle, he washed himself and stay there for another 5 minutes and got out. He warped his body with towel on his hips and one more to wipe his hair. He got to bedroom and walked to the bed while dried his hair. He passed the full body mirror, he stopped to look at himself. His cheeks are chubby and it seems to be chubbier than last year, his body not well-built like when he’s in college. He always insecure about his body, what if he’s fat, he looked at his stomach and frowned. He indeed gaining weight, he pinched his cheeks, stomach and thigh where he thought have more meat than the other part of his body. He looked up and down his body while frowning for another minute then stopped when his phone dinged, he went to the bed where the device and his clothes are. He wore his underwear and shorts then the shirt and reached for the device seeing one unread message. He opened it and it’s from Yoongi, saying that he couldn’t went home early that he would finish at 10 pm or so. He sighed loudly then lay down while closing his eyes phone still at his hand, the grip tightened when let out a shuddered breath. His grip loosens and the phone slipped from his hand when he moved both of his hand towards his face then blocked his eyes with them. Tears started to roll down at the expanse of his cheeks, he silently cried but then it turns out to full sobs. Just the sound of his sobs and occasionally he let out a wail filling the room, he cried until he’s exhausted. His eyes and nose definitely red, when he opened his eyes it sting from crying. He sniffled and turned his body curled to himself, his body feels heavy and he allowed his eyes to close slowly, body relaxing and his conscious slipped away.

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When he wake up it’s late at night seeing by how dark the sky from the bedroom window, he got up stepped in front of the opened window, he closed it and draw the curtain close. He take his phone on the way out of the room, and looking at the time. It’s near 11 pm that’s mean he slept for 3 hours, then his stomach protested because the lack of food. He’s too hungry to cook dinner, so he decided to make ramen. He knew it’s bad to eat ramen in these late hours because it could make him gain weight, but he don’t care anymore about that. After three minutes of waiting, he eat them peacefully but when he nearly finished eating the front door clicked and sound padded foot can be heard, he froze a seconds and turned his head towards the kitchen door. Like he hoped Yoongi come into the kitchen with messed hair wide eyes.

“Jimin?” His husband expression is one of surprised and tiredness.

He smiled to make Yoongi loosen a bit “Welcome back, hyung” he said sweetly while standing up.

Yoongi just stand there while staring at him, especially at his face. He internally confused with this, because is there something stuck in his face making Yoongi stare at him like that. But his husband seemed to focus back and stuttered a responds “U-uh… I-I’m home…” Yoongi said distracted. Yoongi stepped closer to him staring straight to his eyes, “Jimin, have you cried?”

Hearing that he widened his eyes, because how did Yoongi knows. Like Yoongi know he asked, his husband continued “Your eyes are puffy, like when you’re finished crying.”.
He bites his lips to prevent the incoming tears that started to gather at his eyes. “I-I… I-” his voice cracked at the beginning then muffled by Yoongi’s shirt. Because Yoongi’s hugging him tight, his husband hands circled around his waist and at his neck near his nape. Engulfed by Yoongi’s warm body, Yoongi’s cologne and Yoongi’s strong arm around him. This is Yoongi, his Yoongi. He warped his arm at Yoongi torso, hugged the male as tightly and clutched Yoongi’s shirt for support. He released all the pent up emotion by crying onto Yoongi chest, muffled the other name again and again like a mantra. Yoongi appreciate it by calling his name too and rubbing his back soothingly while rocking their body slightly. When his crying subdued, Yoongi pulled away to look at his face. Yoongi hands moved from his neck to his chin and lifted his face making him stare at Yoongi guilty and sad eyes. Yoongi’s hand moved again towards his cheeks to wipe the tears that still flowing. “I’m sorry, Jiminie… I’m really sorry. I’ve been busy with work that I didn’t spare you my full attention.” Yoongi frowned. “I’m a bad husband. I don’t realize that I’ve been leaving you alone.” Yoongi voice was full of guilty and anger while turning his gaze away.

He cupped Yoongi’s face with both hands and turning it to face him, “Yoongi…” he said softly but his voice is hoarse because of crying so much. Yoongi didn’t meet his gaze so he called his husband name again “Yoongi… look at me.” He pleaded softly. Yoongi finally look at him and he smiled. “I know you’ve been busy this past week, and that making you didn’t pay me your full attention and make me lonely too.” He said.

Yoongi expression become more guilty but he added quickly “But I also know you’re doing your best at work and it’s not your purpose to have so many work this week. I’m also glad that today you’re here with me talking to me, because I thought you’re tired of me. You didn’t talk to me like usual we just exchange formal conversation, I know you’re tired from work but can’t you spare me a little time to chat with you even if it’s about work I don’t mind.” He finished seeking Yoongi’s expression.

“Yeah…you’re right, Jiminie. I’m too focused on work that I neglected you. I’m sorry, will you forgive me?” Yoongi said with hopeful tone and big eyes.

“Um…I’ll forgive you if you promise me if something like this happened again, you busy with work you will talk to me and don’t neglect me.” He said with serious tone.

“I promise I will not do it again. But if I started to ignore you just wake me up or slap me to make some sense in my head.” Yoongi said with a determined eyes.

He hummed “Okay.” He said while dipping down to bury his face on Yoongi’s neck. Yoongi nuzzled his face on his hair and pulled him closer by his waist. He sighed contently but then smelling something unpleasant. “Yoongi, you stink. Take a bath now.” He commanded after pulling away from Yoongi and give his husband a scrunched nose. “Go now, hurry. Aren’t you want to sleep?” he asked with raised eyebrow.

Yoongi pouted cutely, “But I’m tired can’t I just go straight to bed?” Yoongi asked and he shake his head. his husband slumped his shoulder and sighed muttering an ‘okay’ before dragged his body to the bath room. He got back to the bedroom, searching for Yoongi’s clothes.

Yoongi entered the bedroom after a solid 10 minutes, with a damped hair and towel around his waist. After his husband dressed he gestured to the other to join him on the bed, Yoongi gladly crawling towards him and sat beside him cross legged. His husband tugged him towards his lap and he accepted it. Yoongi asked him to dried his damp hair, he reach up to the other head and started to dry the hair with towel carefully. Yoongi’s hands resting loosely around his waist, after dried the front side of Yoongi’s hair he moved to the back side and Yoongi leaned down to rest his forehead again his neck near his collarbone. Yoongi’s warm breath tickling his skin, but it’s pleasant, he miss this warmness. But then Yoongi started to gave fluttering kiss around the skin that turned to open-mouthed kiss. He already finished drying his husband hair but letting Yoongi do whatever he wants. He moaned slightly when Yoongi his sensitive spot between neck and shoulder, Yoongi mouth traveled up near his jaw and then towards his ears. He moaned again when Yoongi and his earlobe, he shuddered when Yoongi pulled away. Yoongi looks at him and his eyes flickering between his lips and his eyes, he blinked slowly saying with his eyes to Yoongi to kiss him. Yoongi didn’t waste time and leaned down to finally capture his lips, first it just a lovely kiss they separated and then kissed again this time with more passion. Yoongi deepened the kiss by tilting his head, and pulling him closer. They separated again to catch their breath and stare at each other eyes lovingly. “I love you” Yoongi said. “I love you too.” He answered. Then they lay down together, facing each other then falling asleep on each other arms.