Pondering, Hesitation and Revelation

Be With You (On Hiatus)

This chapter have both Jimin and Yoongi POV, because I wanted to try something new. If you though this have a cliffhanger I didn't mean to but It's getting longer if I continued to make it just one chapter so I cut them. The next chapter probably released by the time I update my other story.

 ♣ = Jimin

 ♠ = Yoongi

Happy Reading~

Yazaki <3

 

He roused from his sleep first he felt warm and then heard the sound of heartbeat faintly, he smiled knowing well the owner of them and nuzzled closer. The next thing he noticed is their legs tangled together and his husband hands draped on his waist. He opened his eyes slowly seeing the pale collarbone, he looked up slightly to see part of his husband sleeping face. He buried his face on the other neck smiling, the act made his husband move slightly. The hand on his waist tightening and he felt his hair moved by the other breathing near them. He sighed quietly opening his eyes and moved his hand on the other chest drawing imaginary lines, his mind filled with their date yesterday and his heart fluttered with fondness and love.

He was happy no he is happy, he can spend his time with husband after a long agonizing times he spend just alone while the other worked. He remembered how miserable he felt that times, but seeing his husband guilty and hurt face when apologizing to him he thought they both hurts. He forgave his husband, always no matter what because he knows that the other will do the same with him. But the number one reason is he loved Yoongi, he loves him so much that he wanted the man to be his forever. 

He already imagining how his future with Yoongi just after dating the man for three months, they will live together spending their time until they old together. His wish is granted now he married with Yoongi living in the comfy apartment they buy. That time he was content to become just like this but now…now he have another thought.

He stopped his hand and just stayed where Yoongi’s heartbeat is, he leaned back a little so he can see the other face fully. He stared at the handsome face of his husband he moved his other hand to brush the hair that covered the other eyes, his touch light so he didn’t bother the other sleep. Yoongi is really handsome with his sharp jaw, small eyes and a bit small lips. If he and Yoongi have child what will they looked like, half him half Yoongi that would be amazing.
He gasped, eyes widen slightly and his hand on Yoongi’s hair stilled. Just what did he thinking now, child – their child. His mind was directed on that thought these past weeks like when he broke down crying that night, when he was lonely taking care of Hyunsoo when Yoongi found him crying after the insecurity filled his mind. After that the thought always pop out whenever he saw Hyunsoo or babies the parents of his student bring with them. He disposed the thought just as fast as it appeared, thinking that they still not ready for that stage yet. 

He retracted his hand on Yoongi’s hair and settled on his own chest where his heart beating faster than normal. He closed his eyes trying to calm himself with Yoongi’s calm heartbeat he felt through his other palm. After a few minutes of silence he opened his eyes, seeing Yoongi peaceful face he smiled. He’s content like this just having Yoongi by his side, having Yoongi as his, he is thankful and he will cherish them – their love. 

He noticed that the sun already high because the light that come from the small opening of the curtain, he decided to make breakfast for the both of them. He slowly removed Yoongi arms from his waist to the bed, he then sat up looking again at Yoongi’s face. He leaned down and kissed the other lips sweetly and smiled happily while patting the other head. With a pleasant smile he walked to the bathroom brushed his teeth first then washed his face. He stared at his own reflection on the mirror, the skin under his eyes back to normal color unlike the past week how dark the skin because his lack of sleep. Actually he was a bit self conscious about his cheeks that still have the baby fat in them, but Yoongi said he liked them so he’s glad and didn’t think too much on them. He ruffled his black hair, trading his hair with his fingers thinking that maybe he should color his hair. 

Somehow he wanted to change his appearance a bit, when he’s in high school he maintained his body even forming a perfect abs. He began to change when he entered collage, when he didn’t have much time to train daily like before. His abs gone just a bit of muscles he still had, Taehyung said he showing his soft features it’s not like he didn’t have it before just he had both soft and hard features back in high school but showed the hard one more than the other. Taehyung liked to say that he’s more suited like this than like when he was in high school, he just shrugged what the other said but he was glad because Taehyung knew about his insecurities. Besides that time was when he met Yoongi become friends and then started dating after Yoongi confessed to him, and Yoongi always praised his looks and what he wore back then.  

He shook his head to clear his mind, he will ask Yoongi opinion about coloring his hair. He then continued to the kitchen, opened the fridge looking at the content while deciding what should he make, after grabbing what he needed and putting them in the counter he boiled some water to make Yoongi his coffee.

His conscious started to come back from his state of sleep, his sense worked slowly but he still had his eyes closed. He felt the warm radiating from his side especially on his chest, he know it is his husband. Just with imagining the other face make his heart flutter, the other seemed to be still and he thought it’s rare for him to be the first to wake up. So he opened his eyes slowly with a little smile on his face, he wanted to see Jimin face despite the comfortable bed and warm blanket that luring him to sleep again. He expected that he will see Jimin peaceful angelic sleeping face but got a bit surprised that the other face is the opposite. The plump lips that he adored so much pursued to a slight frown, his face twisted slightly with eyebrows drawn together making the skin between the closed eyes wrinkled.

He then moved his gaze to the one of Jimin’s hand on his chest and the other on the younger own chest. He’s confused, what’s Jimin doing but he didn’t want to disturb the younger so he stayed silent observing the other face again. Now Jimin eyebrow didn’t draw together like before and his face didn’t look twisted anymore, his breath is steady but not like when he was asleep. Jimin’s awake he knows that but is the younger always do this every day?

When Jimin sighed he hurriedly closed his eyes pretending to be asleep, he felt the other stare and tried to stay still. He felt the other moved away then his hand that draped on the younger waist lifted up and settled on the bed. The bed dipped near his head then he felt something soft touched his lips, definitely Jimin’s lips by how soft it felt. After the kiss ended Jimin patted his head and he assumed the other stood up and walked out of the room. He waited until the sound of footsteps gone to open his eyes, a dumb happy grin and a slight pink on his cheeks.

“ did he do that every time?” he asked himself while looking at the closed door.

He turned so he was laid on his back looking at their bedroom ceiling, he still smiling and his heart soaring with love and fondness to his husband. He stayed like that just thinking about Jimin how he loved the younger so much, and he halted when he remembered the face Jimin just before. What the younger thinking about at that time, he didn’t want to make the other sad and hurt again. He needed to know what bothering Jimin but he obviously couldn’t ask directly to the other, he should pay more attention to figure that out. Especially their anniversary just two days ahead and his prepared surprise for the younger, he hoped Jimin happy with what he planned for them. Well not exactly his plan, their parents and Namjoon participated on making the plan.

Talking about the plan he needed to talk to Namjoon about it, also his and Jimin’s parents will visit them tomorrow. He sat up then reached to grab his phone on the table near the bed, he scrolled down his contact and pressed the call button. Namjoon answered on the five rings, the other greeted him and he answered back.

“Joon, did you took care the flight schedule?” he asked to the point.

“Yeah, be thankful hyung. I also took care for where you guys will stay and the brochure for the place you wanted to visit.” Namjoon said with a proud tone.

“Hm, Thank you Namjoon-ah.” He said sincerely.

“Your welcome hyung, hope you enjoyed the trip with Jimin and I know you will.” Namjoon said laughing in the end with his own words, he also snorted knowing it right.

“Can we meet up today? I want to make sure of everything.” He asked.

“Of course, hyung but I only have this morning free. Need to go discuss something with Heebom-hyung about the story script on the afternoon.” He could hear rustling on the other side.

“That’s perfect, because I also had plan for that time.” he said while standing up.

“Date with Jimin?” Namjoon asked with playful voice.

He hummed getting a chuckle from the younger, “Okay than hyung see you at ten at the usual place.” Namjoon stated more likely asked for his confirmation.

“Yeah, see you there.” He answered and hung up after saying bye.

He put the phone on the desk and walked to the bathroom, slowly brushed his teeth and washing his face. He entered the kitchen when Jimin putting some bacon and egg on the plate, the younger looked up and smiling at him.

“Good morning, Yoongi-hyung.” Jimin stepped to the side and meeting half way, tilted his head up when he in front of him.

He closed the space between their face and kissed the other lips, their lips just touched for a few seconds they already parted. Jimin’s eyes still closed and had a dazed content expressions on his face, he leaned down again connected their lips with his head tilted to the right. His hands already gripped loosely at Jimin’s hip, while Jimin’s hands moved to his face. Jimin taste sweet, strawberry milk and he probably taste mint like their toothpaste. He nibbled on Jimin’s bottom lips earning a pleased sigh from the younger, after that he them and repeated the act until they parted to breath. He leaned back alittle to observe the other reaction, Jimin’s eyes slowly opened and his lips stretched to form a smile. The younger lips red and a bit puffy with how he nibbled on them, his cheeks dusted pink with blush. Over all Jimin looks beautiful, he couldn’t resist the urge to kiss him again so he pecked the younger lips. Jimin giggled after that, making him smile wider.
“We should eat, the food will become cold.” Jimin said after distancing their body and sat on the chair.

“Yeah.” He agreed and took a seat across from Jimin.

They eat silently just glancing at each other sometime, exchanging smile but he mostly stared at Jimin. Because of that Jimin’s the first one to finish while he still have half of the food, while he finished his food Jimin was staring at him. The last bite he took Jimin stood up and gathered the plates, he turned to his side wanting to protest but Jimin shut him by pecking his forehead. The younger laughed after seeing his pout that looked weird because he still had food in his mouth, he watched Jimin washed the plates while drinking his coffee that Jimin made.

“Oh Hyung, what do you think if I colored my hair?” Jimin asked suddenly.

“Hm, I think it’s not a bad idea. Why you want to color them?” he asked while thinking about the color that suited his lovely husband.

“Yeah I intended to do it. I just want your opinion.” Jimin said with a lower voice in the end.

He stood up with a slight frown and walked until he right behind Jimin, “Whatever your hair color is, whatever you wear I love them all. Because I love you, no matter what your appearance is I like all about you, you know that Jimin-ah.” He hugged Jimin from behind.

“I know hyung and I love you too.” Jimin tone is soft and hint of shy in them, “Then I’ll color my hair tomorrow.”

“What color do you want?” he asked curiously because he can’t decide what’s better Jimin looked good in every color he imagined.

“It’s a secret~” Jimin said with playful tone.

He laughed and said he’s looking forward to them. They moved to the living room after that, intending to watch something together. He glanced at the clock on the wall near their TV, he still one hour and half until his meeting with Namjoon.

“Jiminie, I have to get some files from my office that I forgot to bring yesterday. Is that okay?” he asked when they settled on the couch. Jimin looked up at him flicker of sadness on his eyes making him quickly explain, “It will not take long, we will still go to our date in the afternoon.” 

“Oh…Okay then. Do you need to go now?” Jimin’s tone is calm and he’s glad that the sadness he saw before disappear.

“No, I’ll go in a hour at least.” He said smiling to reassure the other.

Jimin hummed and smiled back, the younger then snuggled closer after taking the remote. He put his hand on Jimin’s shoulder so the younger rested his head on between his shoulder and chest. They watched some news and a morning variety show, it currently talking about baby health and stuff about baby. He didn’t really taking interest on them, but Jimin seemed to be with how the younger eyes shine with curiosity and didn’t leave the TV screen. 

He decided to watch the younger face instead, how the other nodded his head slightly when the Mc saying something but after some minutes Jimin expression changed. The other had a slight frown and distant look on his face, he moved his gaze to see what made the other like that. The mother of the baby is talking about how she taking care of her baby, nothing weird that making Jimin like this. He looked back at the younger in time when Jimin shake his head a little and looked up. Their gaze met and he saw some flicker of something foreign on Jimin’s eyes, but it gone as soon as it came. Jimin smiled at him sweetly and he smiled back.

“Isn’t the baby cute, hyung?” the younger asked looking at the screen again.

“Yeah” he answered distracted still looking at Jimin.

Jimin giggled after seeing how adorable the baby acted, and he continued to ponder what the other thinking about just now. He didn’t do it too long though that the time showed that he should get going if not he will be late, he didn’t want to make Jimin wait for him to come back later. He informed the younger he’s going to change earned a nod from Jimin, he changed his clothes to a simple button up and black loose jeans. He took his work bag with his phone and wallet, when he walked back to living room Jimin still seated on the couch.

He approached the younger and kissed his lips and forehead when Jimin looked at him, he walked out after Jimin said ‘be careful on the way’. His mind still tried to find the answer for Jimin behavior, but when he actually arrived on the said café he and Namjoon usually meet his mind focused on the plan.

He stared at the closed front door where his husband just go through, he sighed and let his body fall to his side. Legs drew together until his knees near his chest and arms covered his face and muffled the dejected sound from his mouth. He lowered his arms until it rested near his head staring blankly at the Tv screen that now playing a commercial. He unconsciously paying more attention to the program before, taking note in his mind about the important things that said. When he realized that he beaten himself for it, he also surprised that Yoongi looking at him when he just dismissed the thought. He hoped the older didn’t notice his thought, he wasn’t ready to hear the other reaction about it. 

He busied himself with doing laundry to distract his mind, he played some music on his hand phone to brighten his mood. The clothes all already washed and dried, he was folding the clothes when his phone vibrated. He carefully put the clothes to the basket and took the device seeing that he had two messages from Jaejoong-hyung. 

10.24
Jimin-ah are you at home right now?

10.24
I want to spend time together with Hyunsoo too, he said he miss you.

He smiled happy hearing that Hyunsoo missing him, Jaejoong and he didn’t have time to spend together lately. It’s not a bad idea he can spend time waiting for Yoongi with the two of them.

10.25
I’m at home, it’s my day off. I miss you and Hyunsoo too, hyung.

10.25
I’ll be there in a minute~

Jaejoong replied fast so the older must already prepared, so he stand up with the basket full of clothes bringing them to the bedroom. He put them on the bed and walked to the front door hearing the bell, he already smiling when the door opened revealing Jaejoong and Hyunsoo. Jaejoong reached for his elbow pulling him to an embrace, then Hyunsoo let out cute whiny voice with his arm stretched upwards. He pulled away from Jaejoong crouched down to Hyunwoo and holding the boy under his armpit lifted the little body until they’re face to face. He rubbed his nose to Hyungsoo’s little one making the younger giggle and laughed with his tiny hands touching Jimin’s cheeks and jaw.

“Hello, our cute Hyungsoo~” he cooed after warped one of his arm behind the boy back while the other under the little bottom to support him.

“Jimin-mama!” Hyungsoo greeted with a smiling face while patting his cheeks and his smile widen hearing the nickname Hyungsoo gave him.

He laughed and shifted the boy on his arms ushering Jaejoong who still standing there watching them, they settled on the couch with Hyungsoo on his lap after. Jaejoong gave him homemade cupcakes and pudding, the older casually enter the kitchen to store the food on the fridge and put some for them to eat. While the older gone he talked to Hyungsoo who seemed to be still smiling at him.

“Do you miss me, soo? I miss you so much.” He said while emphasize the latter and pecked the boy forehead after.

“Soo miss J’min-mama too. Co~ much!” Hyungsoo said with cute gesture, extending his little hands wide showing how much he mean.

“Wah~ I’m so happy. Then will you give me a kiss?” he asked while leaned his face to the other.

“Otay!” Hyungsoo broken word really sound adorable.

Hyungsoo leaned forward touching his lips onto his own just slightly, he pointed to his cheek indicating the younger to kiss it too. Hyungsoo giggled but pecked his both side of his cheeks he then showering the younger boy face with kisses. Their laughter filled the room the sound is melodious and the third voice that joined them also sounded mellifluous.

Small cup of pudding on hands he and Jaejoong began their talking, about everything and anything catching up with each other. Hyungsoo settled between them with Jaejoong occasionally feed some pudding to him, Jimin wiped the boy mouth if it became a bit messy. In the middle of their conversation his phone rang and by the ringtone it was his mom.

“Hello, mom.” He greeted happily while side glacing at Jaejoong who perked up hearing that.

“Jimin-ah… how are you?” his mom cheerful voice warmed his heart.

“I’m fine, mom. How about you and dad?” he asked while smiling, Hyungsoo babbling on his side also fueling his happy smile.

“I’m fine, your dad also fine but he just getting better after he got a cold last week.” His mom tone had that little sass and that mean his father must be near her.

“Is he okay now?” he asked worriedly, earning a hum from his mother, “I’m glad then. By the way, I miss you mom and dad too.” He said.

“I miss you too, Jimin-ah. Your dad also miss you, he said he miss your smile.” his mom said with a chuckle after making him doing the same. “Oh Jimin-ah your anniversary with Yoongi is near, right?” he asked.

He blinked trying to remember the date and he realized that she was right actually it’s very near just in two days from today. “Yeah, it’s the day after tomorrow. Why?” he asked.

“We planned to visit with Yoonjung and Jungki tomorrow.” He stayed silent stunned by how loving and caring his parent and Yoongi’s parent with their son life.

“Okay, I can’t wait to see you all.” He said with a grateful smile on his face.

“Oh, Yoonjung and I have a gift for you Jimin-ah. We choose them together, it’s your anniversary gift from us.” His mother is excited by her tone and he really curious about the gift after hearing her.

“Oh mom, you and Yoongi’s mom didn’t have to do that. But I’m thankful for the gift, and what is it – the gift?” he asked.

“It’s a secret, you will know when you received it tomorrow.” She said with playful tone.

“Come on mom~” he whined playfully but his attention diverted to the little hand that patted his thigh. Hyungsoo looked up to him with big doe eyes, he almost forget that the boy and Jaejoong here. “Oh, mom… Jaejoong-hyung here with me.” He mentioned the older with a smile.

“Really? I want to talk to him, Jimin-ah.” She said with a happy tone.

He gave Jaejoong his phone telling the older that her mom wanted to talk. Jaejoong accepted the device and held it near his ears while he gave his full attention to Hyungsoo who wanted to crawl onto his lap. He lifted the boy and seated him on his lap facing him, he blew from his mouth gently on the younger face. Hyungsoo closed his eyes and his bright laughter followed by his own after. He bended down to nuzzle his face on Hyungsoo’s neck, his fingers rubbing slowly on the other stomach tickling him. Hyungsoo’s little arm warped around his head, grasped his hair slightly while his laughter filled his hearing.

After that he straightened back while smiling, Hyungsoo still giggling and he started to make a weird sound with one of his hand moving around. Trying to make Hyungsoo keep smiling and laughing. He was too focused on Hyungsoo and the happiness he felt thrummed through his body that he didn’t realized the gaze Jaejoong had on him for a few moments ago. He felt a tap on his shoulder and turned his head seeing Jaejoong extending his arm with his phone. He grasped the device and asked what did his mom said, Jaejoong telling him about the talk with his mom and Hyungsoo who reached for his phone. He distractedly let Hyungsoo have his phone, the boy tapped the screen. Jaejoong stare is somewhat making him couldn’t turn his gaze away.

“Jimin-ah, do you want to have a child?”

The question stunned him, he blinked a few times and then looked down at Hyungsoo who was playing with his phone. A small smile formed on his face imagining how his day spent with Yoongi’s and his child. 

“Yes.” His voice is small almost sound like a whisper but Jaejoong seemed to hear it.

He felt a gentle touch on his head and he looked up seeing Jaejoong looking at him with a smile.

“Then talk to Yoongi about it.” The older seemed always know his thought.

His smile dropped a bit, “Hyung I…” he closed his eyes for a few seconds finding his heart beating a little fast paced. “I’m not sure hyung, if Yoongi want to or not. I’m happy with how we are right now and I don’t want to make thing awkward between us.” He continued after opening his eyes.

“You didn’t know if you don’t try. Yoongi might be never thought about it but if you mentioned the topic he could agree to it.” Jaejoong gaze is kind and he could feel his emotion bubbling up.

“I feel insecure hyung…” he confessed.

“Jimin-ah…” Jaejoong said while cradling his head to his shoulder. “Just talk to Yoongi, Jimin. You know I’m always here for you, tell me everything when you do it, hm?”

“Okay, hyung. I’ll try to talk to him.” he said while enjoying the feel of Jaejoong’s hands treaded through his hair.

They pulled away after hearing Hyunsoo’s babbling and disgruntled sounds. When they saw Hyunsoo’s cute frown with furrowed eyebrow and adorable pout they laughed and cooing at the little boy antics.

“So that’s all hyung. I also searched for the pamphlet about the place. It’s all settled.” Namjoon moved the file folder through the table to him.
He opened them going through all of the file he needed to the vacation – pamphlet, air plane tickets, the route and map. He smiled to the younger as saying his thanks and Namjoon just nodded his head while sipping his coffee. They stayed silent for a while Namjoon sipping his coffee while looking at the people outside through the window on their side while he himself just staring at the tickets thinking how he will go with his precious person in the near time.
“So hyung, how’s Jimin doing?” Namjoon suddenly asked making him look up.

His mouth tugged upward forming a smile while thinking about Jimin, “He’s doing fine, he’s taking a day off today so we going to go out after this.” his thought then going to the time when he’s too focused on his work that he neglected the precious Jimin. “But he’s not two weeks before.” He said with low voice.
“Jin-hyung talked to me about Jimin that time. I might know that it’s about your work hyung, because you’re a workaholic.” Namjoon said surprised him that the younger heard. He opened his mouth to reply but the younger continued. “So, I just reassured him. I know you will fix it hyung, it’s Jimin’s and your’s struggle. We all have our own struggle and that will make us stronger.” Namjoon finished with a smile, his trademark smile – a dimpled smile.

He chuckled and smiling slightly at the younger but he’s glad to have a friends like Namjoon, who’s thoughtful and caring at the same time. “You and your philosophic talk.” He said instead.

They finished their drink while talking about their days, he gathered the file folder in his hands. They walked out together and bidding each other good bye. He drove back home thinking where should they go for their date, Jimin’s the one who decided but he need to come up with somewhere too if the younger didn’t have an idea.
He entered the apartment with folder in hands, “I’m back.” He said softly putting his shoes away. He saw Jimin on the living room bending down tidying the couch, the younger looked back to see him.

“Oh, hyung you’re back. Welcome back.” Jimin said while straightened and walked to him.

The younger pecked him on the lips making them both smile, “What’re you doing while I’m gone?” he asked.

“Oh, yeah. Jaejoong-hyung and Hyunsoo come visiting, so I spend my time with them.” The younger said while tugging Yoongi to the couch. He hummed watching Jimin’s happy face with a loving smile, “Mom also called, she said they will come visit tomorrow with your parent too.”

“Yeah? That’s good, I missed your mom and my mom cooking.” He said amused by Jimin’s reaction, the younger pouted.

“Is my cooking not good anymore?” Jimin said while looking up and pressing his chest to his side. 

He looked down at Jimin who looked cute and adorable like this but it also stirred something else on his stomach, he shook his head. “Of course not, your cooking always be my favorite.” He said and moved his head down to kiss Jimin.

They stayed for a few minutes lips touching each other, just sharing a sweet kiss. Jimin had a faint blush adoring his cheeks when they pulled away.
“So where should we go, have you decided yet?” he asked.

“Yeah, Jaejoong-hyung mentioned about the new aquarium opened not too far away from here. Can we go there?” Jimin asked with a shy voice.

“Yeah, we can.” He said then pecked the younger forehead, “You’re so cute Jiminie.”

Jimin whined and swatted his shoulder, he clutched his shoulder and facing away the younger. He noticed the folder that he discarded on the table, he almost forgot about it.

“Why don’t we get ready then, I’ll going to put this first.” He said while grabbing the folder and standing up.

“Okay, I also have to finish folding our clothes.” Jimin said and following him to the bathroom
 

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kenmylove
#1
Chapter 9: Omg ken and Ravi ! I thought keo xd but anyway I love this story continue ♡♡♡
joanna20 #2
Chapter 9: Appearance of Leo & N. My otp in ViXX
rdianitasari #3
Good story author-nim. I love yoonmin marriage life story hehe fighting for the next chapter~
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#4
Chapter 5: i love this. jiminie is such a cute wife <3