“Thank you so much Y/n, you have no idea how much this means to us.” Jungkook said and my eyes drifted down to his arm locked firmly around his wifes waist. ‘That should be me’ I thought to myself sadly but forced a smile anyway as the sound of running and giggles soon manifested somewhere in the house before his son and daughter came bounding into the living room, two sets of arms gripping my waist as they launched themselves forward.

“Aunty Y/n!” they screeched in unison and the joy I felt bubble up within me as I looked down at them lifted my mood for a brief moment before I was filled with that hollow feeling once more. ‘I will always be just aunty’

“Hey you little monsters, say goodbye to your mom and dad.” I told them as I ruffled their hair and they detached from me, leaving an empty feeling in the space around me.

“Bye mom, bye dad!” they said giving them both tight squeezes and peppering their faces with kisses, affection I would never know as I watched the man of my dreams put down children I wished were mine as he got ready to leave with a woman that wasn’t me.

“You know, you should really consider having children of your own,” his wife piped up causing me to look at her. I had tried so hard to hate her, convinced she had stolen the life that should have been mine but I soon came to realize it wasn’t her fault. She had been brave where I had been scared and now all I felt was envy towards her and the fact she got all his ‘I love yous’, his kisses, his smiles, his laughs and his children. “you’re so good with ours that I’m convinced you’d make a wonderful mother.” 

There it was, the knife that was already plunged deeply in my chest being twisted at her words causing the forced laugh to emerge as I fought the sting of my eyes. “Oh no, I prefer being able to give them back when im done.” I replied in a joking tone causing them both to laugh despite the fact I had once dreamed of nothing more than being a mother.

“Oh shoot, babe we gotta go.” Kookie said as he checked his watch. “I love you two, be good for Y/n.” he said stooping to give each of them one last kiss before he stood up and pulled me into a tight hug and for just a second I lost myself in the scent of his cologne before he pulled away.

“You two have fun and don’t worry about a thing, I’ve got everything taken care of.” I said as the two of exited their home, their children climbing on me in the process causing me to laugh as I did my best to hold them up so they didn’t fall,Kookie turning one last time and smiling at the sight of us caused my heart to skip.

“Can we play hide and seek?” His son asked, “And eat pizza?” his little girl added, giving me those big dark eyes and I just stared down at them in awe. It was like I was staring at two miniature clones of Jungkook and I was grateful for it but at the same time cursed it because it was almost as though they knew they could get me to do almost anything for them.

“Anything you guys want.” I told them with a sigh and a smile as I dropped to my knees and they quickly clambered into my arms, clinging to me so tight I almost forgot they weren’t mine, and for a little while I could just pretend.