I was a mess..

I messed up everything I had, my job, my friends and my family. Enough to say, I messed up my life.

My life turned upside down since six years ago. Or was it nine years ago? I don't even know anymore. Few times I could stand on my feet for quite long. But the last event triggered me to down again into tje lowest pit of depression.

I couldn't blame all of the events thet happened or the people to put me into this situation. All I could blame is myself.

I was a coward, selfish and unstable girl. Sometimes I don't even know what kinda person I am. 

I was a little girl who Lost in this big big world