11 Sep 2017.

 

Her POV:  I wanted so much, to be back with you in your arms too. To be held tightly by you and to be assured that everything is going to be alright even when both of us know the truth is very much otherwise. That it is ok for us to escape from reality for a little while when Time permits. I had to push you away to test you as I wanted to know if you would come to me again, on your own accord. I wanted to know if you missed me and thought of me as often as I do think of you. I wanted to know that I am not alone in such thoughts of you as all these thoughts torment me, knowing that we cannot have each other. It is just too much that both of us have to give up in order to be together. Therefore, none of us are prepared to give it all up, no. I wanted to be back chummy with you immediately all over again but it would have been confusing for you, trying to figure out which is me. I will tell you that all sides of me are, me. Almost every other day, I get washed with waves of emotion just thinking about you and pining for you. When I thought that I am finally moving ahead and thoughts of missing you are getting lesser by the day, you had to sneak in a text message to check on me. After that, you left again. Then in the first place, why did you decide to sound me out again? Then after sounding me out, why did you leave again? I hate you for putting me onto the emotional rollercoaster again when I thought I am finally getting off it.   On the other