Rain 

One second, it didn’t even take that much time, before she disappeared from my sight. I was too shocked and angry to follow that I couldn’t even warn her about the car that was dashing her way. I hated myself, it was because of me that she was not here with me. Alone in our apartment, I couldn’t help but reminisce our memories spent here, even if it was a short amount of time. I lifelessly walked into the bathroom. She was always on his mind, and how she lay cold, as if she was dead. She was playing with me, she liked to toy with me, but I guess not this time.

I sat down on the bath tub, I always preferred taking long baths, it helped me keep my mind off of something I didn’t want to think about, but I guess she was different, nothing could take her off my mind. I did’t even notice when the water got hot, I just stared with a curiously blank expression on my face as the water took over me, the water slowly inched up my legs as if it wanted to sooth me from my pain. I realised that, I was too big for this tub, she always kept telling me to buy one… I guess I never really listened to a word she said. The water splashed over my muscled stomach, and I finally felt myself calming down.

I really loved her.

“OK! good job boys, thats enough for today, we’ll gather around same time tomorrow kay?” Our dance instructor announced as soon as we finished dancing to our lead single of our album. We exited the SMe building, and I saw crowd holding signs that said ‘You killed our Taeyeon’ and ‘Go die’. It was quiet common actually, but somehow in someway it always seemed to shatter my heart. I killed their princess… I shou- I was cut off when Chanyeol placed a hand on my shoulder, probably to help me. We got in our van and droved off. 

“Baekhyun hyung, whats left in that empty house… Please come to our dorm… j-just like th-e old ti-times eh?” Sehun spoke out of nowhere, gathering attention of everyone that was sitting in the van. He didn’t understand, he never would. “Y-yeah..Great idea!” Kai encouraged, they were all getting on my nerves today. “Stop the car.” I ordered and the driver immediately stopped, I saw everyone looking at me with concerned expression, and the pity on their faces.

“I’ll see you guys tomorrow.” With saying that, I jumped out of my car, and started walking to a unknown direction. My footsteps always seemed to make way to our house, but this time, they wanted to go to her, where she lay lifelessly, where she didn’t open her eyes.

Not much time had passed by when I was surrounded my the crowd, taking pictures, and uttering bad stuff. “YOU KILLED HER!” One of them shouted and threw a egg at me, making me flinch in surprise, they hated me. I couldn’t even give a proper response when my phone rang, I pulled it out of the pocket of my egged green jacket. 

‘Seohyun’ 

I immediately picked it up. “S-she..Sh-e…” she hesitated, and I was afraid that she gave up on her life, that she finally slept forever. The little chance of her for waking up, vanished and I couldn’t help but to let tears flow continuously from my numb, red, broken eyes.

‘When I d-die, don’t ever come n-near my body, because m-my hand may n-not be ab-able to wipe y-your tears anymore.’ She said to before she went into a coma, leaving me for God knew how long.

“Sh-shes awake!! I can’t belt-believe this, Fany didn’t want me to tell y-you, but..she doesn’t ha-” That was a miracle, He accepted my prayers. Before I knew it, I dashed pass the crowd rudely, tears continuously streaming down my eyes.

Memories of our time together were flashing down my eyes, I felt bad that I didn’t even let SNSD maknae complete herself. I got into a taxi in a hurry , and drove to ’Seoul National Health Hospital’ 

It was a miracle, but while it was a miracle, it was too good to be true.

“Where is she!?” I yelled as soon as I spotted Sunny, who was bitting her finger nails nervously. I shook her with all my might, grabbing her shoulder. 

“Get lost monster.” I heard a voice from behind me, and as soon as I turned around I saw Tiffany crossing her arms, looking at me as if I was some kind of… what she said ‘Monster.’

“Please noona, I need to see her.” I turned around and plead to Sunny.

“I’ll let you see her but..” Sunny mumbled earning a growl from Tiffany, are you ready to let her go forever?” 

…My world crashed, It all made sense,  God wouldn’t be so easy on me, keeping me a year without her was just the start, I was being tested. 

I didn’t say anything and Sunny guided to the room she was in. 

As soon as I got, I saw the rest of the SNSD members, gathered around my princess, probably discussing where she wants her funeral to be held. When they saw me enter, one by one each of them got up, giving me looks that were not kind and welcoming, but then again, it didnt even matter anymore.. I carefully got to her, where she lay motionless, her head was turned away and I feared that any second now, I will hear a beep and her face will be covered with the white sheet that she was wearing. 

“He-hello ba-baby..” I voiced hesitantly , beads of sweat were visible on my forehead. Cautiously, I sat down on the edge of the bed, the mattress sagged under my weight, I observed how pale she looked, and how much she changed in the few months, her skin looked dead.

When I did not hear a response, I went over the side where her head was facing, and knelt down, sobbing painfully. It shattered me to no extent, when her tears were streaming down her eyes. 

“What did I tell you? I asked you to never come near me you kn-“ 

I cut her off softly by grabbing her hands, and covering them with mine, I wanted to tell her that i’m here and forever will be.

“I’m sorry..” I hesitated. 

“Its not your fault, I can’t believe how did I dare to refuse you, how did I refuse to make a family with you,” She began in one breath and continued, “It only meant that yo-you wanted to stay with me forever.” 

“Taey-“ 

“You love me? After all those times? You’re willing to stay? While my soul drifts away from my body?” 

“Always.”

“Im glad.”

Beep..Beep

“Call the doc” 

“What is going on!?” 

“HOLY!”

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 “Mommy, how does this drawing looks?” Our daughter Byun Baekyeon showed the drawing she drew, it was nothing much, just some crayon lines, but to me and my wife, it was love. I saw our family together.

A/N : IM Not cruel okay? I have feelings!!! I was this close to letting her die!! BUT NOO BAEKHYUN FOREVER SORRY IF THIS IS A BIT ANGSTY, I DIDNT WARN YA’LL BUT ITS WORTH IT, DONT FORGET TO LEAVE THE COMMENT, CUZ SERIOUSLY IT MAKES ME SUPER HAPPY, and I enjoy reading comments, it helps me keep myself motivated.

I posted a fore ward of my new fan fiction of ‘BAEKYEON’ Its called “CHAINED Up” be sure to check it out, but this time I warn you its angsty .

DJ OUT!