Hello, loves!

it's been a while hasn't it? i missed you guys so much and i definitely missed writing alot. before anything i would like to say something.

firstly, i would like to apologize for disappearing just like that, i didn't mean to leave all of you hanging. i have my reasons and honestly, things were... complicated. but i also wouldnt blame you guys though, i'd be mad at me too if people leave me hanging *laughs* 

truth be told, i wasn't having the best time of my life, so i took my time to heal and just trying to get back on my feet with life. at times it gets worse but it didn't necessarily flunctuated all the way. i woulnd't say i am perfectly fine now but hey, this carrot is getting better! and im taking the opportunity to speak here. ("dumb carrot, you could have just said something, it's not that hard!") oh, but unfortunately it was :')  it is hard for me to speak about something when i am not mentally ready, but i hope you guys can understand me. however! Red Velvet has been giving me hope and up until today (when i'm still breathing) i am thankful for them. the contents we've been receiving these days are mad! cheers to us, amirite?

ok enough being all pitiful! here's some good news;

i'll be writing again, YAY!

but i can't promise to update constantly though, but i'll try! it's been 2? 3 years? since last i wrote and i gotta be honest, it feels weird to be typing again *laughs*

ALSO,