Hello :) it’s been a long time, I’m sorry. I went on a hiatus for a long time. During this time I’ve struggled a lot with myself, and I don’t know if I have gotten better but now writing feels more normal. That long break helped me realise that I need to write like I breathe. It’s vital. I need it. 

Also, I have written the next chapter already. I’m currently also writing N.O’s next chapter. I will be posting soon. Please wait. Thank you so much to everyone who left me messages of support, it strengthened me on my rough days. I will become a stronger, better person. Thank you for believing in me.

I was going to post earlier but the recent news of Jonghyun (SHINee) broke my heart. R.I.P Jjong <3 His suicide, when I thought about it clearly, made me think of how sickening this world is. How cruel it is to some people. I don’t want to leave behind so much loss, because that grief I felt caused me to not be able to get out of bed in the morning. I was crying all day when no one was there. I was holding back tears when I was happy. When I was alone, nothing could stop me from hurting. This is to those of my subscribers who are hurting. Please don’t give up. Even if it takes a thousand years, there has to be something given back to us for all our struggle. Something needs to make up for it. Stay strong x you can email me anytime at [email protected]. I’ll reply ASAP. 

Just cause y’all been waiting so long, next chapter is Hoseok’s POV and