WARNING; There is cutting and depression included in this. If you are uncomfortable with this topic then i advise that you do not read!

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Maybe we just weren’t meant to be. Shouting. Screaming. Crashing. Crying. Replaying over and over again in my mind. Hair strewn, objects lay broken on the wooden floors. Lifeless. I sat on my bead staring at the wooden floor. Tracing the pattern with my eyes, my hands fidget with each other. My eyes dull, losing life as my world came crashing down. Four days. Without the love of my life. It was a mistake. It was all wrong. But maybe we just weren’t meant to be. My heart was seared, torn and thrown on the ground. My body, numb with exhaustion. My body fell onto the bed, feeling the urge to cry but to no avail. Seems like my two days of crying ran my tear ducts dry. A sigh tumbled from my lips, eyes staring at the ceiling. This is your fault. There is no one to blame but you. You’re an idiot. You ed up. Everyone’s leaving you. No one’s going to fall in love with someone like you. Thought swirled inside my head, reaching out for the knife on my bedside table. Depression. It was returning and I couldn’t stop myself from feeling the familiar grip of the knife. The blade gleamed in delight, encouraging me to use it. I bring it close to wrist, trembling as I do so. Slightly dragging it across the flesh of my wrist. The blade cutting through. My wrists burned and stung but it was taking away the pain in my heart. Another cut across my arm. Continuous until I couldn’t feel the pain that numbed my body. I threw the knife onto the floor, not caring to wash it. Slowly standing up, I headed to the restroom, washing my cuts roughly and wiping it with a towel. Falling onto my back on the bed again, I curl up into the comforters hoping that maybe things could return to the way they were. Where I was happy. He was happy. Bliss and happiness surrounding us as we had no care in the world. W