"okay students, open page 85 and let's start the lesson"

mr. luhan started his lesson teaching us a new matrial, and i was there looking out of the window not caring that much, he kept on glancing at me from time to time and i had to ignore him, i want to show him that i was serious that day, actually after thinking about what i said to him that day i feel a little guilty i mean he only tried to help me but then i have another thought that i should never feel guilty because he deserved it

so the question is if i really don't want anything with him and hate him that much then why i'm trying to protect him instead of protecting baekhyun? i looked to my right and saw baekhyun and how he was so focused to what luhan was talking about he looks so handsome while he's focused but then i locked eyes with sehun who glared at me the moment our eyes met so i turend my head and cursed under my breath , sehun's eyes brought me memories of that day i decided to be a traitor and do this to baekhyun why am i such a selfish ? how can i still be a friend with baekhyun when i already know what am i about to do? how can i look at his eyes after this

i didn't notice that the bell rang untill baekhyun approached me smiling wow how many minutes passed while i was thinking, oh please baekhyun don't smile, don't smile that makes me even more guilty

"ready to grab a lunch?" 

he gave me his super smile that can make your heart melt

"ah- i..."

  i was going to decline because i don't wan't to feel more guilty than how guilty i feel right now but then i noticed that sehun was watching me all the time and i'm sure about what he wants me to do, i don't have much choices do i? baekhyeon was looking at me worried then he noticed that i was looking at sehun

"ah don't worry dabin, i'm with you i'll protect you and that bastard won't even dare to touch you "

i smiled awkradly at him, if he only knows

we got there to the cafetria to eat our lunches and talk about random stuff we talked for a long time and even forgot to eat our lunches we talked about what do we like and what do we don't, about movies and dramas and about our childhood

" so you know my childhood wasn't that good" 

he said while playing wih his food ,i looked at him after i took one bite of my food and waited for him to continue

  l " my parents didn't care about me that much they didn't spend a lot of time with me, i used to see childrens at kindergarten waiting passionetaly for their parents i used to  see how much love their parents had for them and i used to be jeolous, then when i turned 8 my parents died by a car accident i didn't know what to do anymore, i didn't know even if i was sad, my uncle took care of me at that time and to be honest his wife didn't like me neither her kids she kept lying to him about me doing bad things which i didn't she used to always put me in the bad picture so the whole family always believed that i'm the bad kid and when i went to middle school there i met my nightmare i spent months thinking about commiting suicide because i got to the point that i can't take it anymore" l  

he swiped his tears

 d -"at there, at middle school there was a rich guy who's known for bullying anyone he wants for no reason ,once he notice you, you have to say hello to hell  and that's what happened, he noticed me so he used to bully me at school and with the help of my cousins he also bullied me at home i felt hopless , i didn't know what i did wrong to deserve such a life, i hate him i really do , i hate him " he gritted his teeth

i remained silent i didn't know what to say, i feel