"here, i left you some of my cloths you can wear them when you finish, well there not cool but they are okay, i'll be in the living room"

i can hear luhan screaming behind the bathroom door, i sighed in the shower yeah believe it or not i called luhan once again, i didn't have much choices i don't have baekhyun's number and actually luhan told me to call him whenever i face a problem so it's okay right?, the thing wasn't cool that he had to see me like that i know,  i was disgusting full with chanyeol's vomit but what can i do? when he came i didn't cry or say anything i just stared at the ground , he was shocked, well he didn't have to  since he already knows what they do to me everyday, he got closer to me and released me, honestly i don't know how he dared to touch me, then he guide me to his car and drove us to his house

i turned off the shower put the towel on get out of the bathroom to be in his room, it's not the first time that i be in his room but this time it's different at  first  i was amazed but now i don't have a time to fangirl over his room i don't feel like liking anything. i saw the clothes that luhan left for me on his bed, they're like 2 times bigger than me i wore them then decided to head to the living room where i saw him sitting and holding the album that i was curuios to open it the first time i was at his house, then he noticed me, closed the album, and tried to hide it behind his back

"oh dabin here you are come and sit beside me" 

he moved a little to leave me a space to sit down, i didn't say anything and sat beside him

" so, how do you feel, better?"

i nodded my head but the truth is no

"ah- listen i made us a dinner let's go eat before its...."

" i want to go home"

i said in a low voice more like a whisper

"sure i'll take you home but for now i'm sure you are hungry so...."

"noo, i said i want to go home !"

i screamed, and he stared at me for few seconds 

" okay, i'll just get my keys"

i hear his footstpes getting far away, i took it as a chance to put my head in my hands, i don't  no why i'm being like that, i don't know what i feel about him, am i mad at him or what? i don't know but i still love him yet hate him 

"okay let's go"

i followed him from behind

finally i got home, i told luhan to stop few blocks away from my house like the last time, when i tried to get out from his car i felt his hand grip on my arm

" i don't want you to tell me exactly what happened but can you at least give me a chance?"

"mr lu i can't"

" i told you it's luhan"

 l " mr.lu, this is wrong , i know you only want to help me but those are my problems and i can deal with them and actually i don't know why you suddenly care, did you forget? did you forget that you knew everything that happened to me and decided to ignore it because clearly it doesn't matter to you and now what? suddenly it matters to you? oh please cut the act, you're just a coward mr lu just like everyone, you are afraid of sehun right? because his father is the most richest man in korea and he can fire you and make sure you never get a job , you don't know what you're doing mr lu, you decided to be a hero at the wrong time , do me a favor and get away from me and that would be the last time i call you

 i slammed the door and head back home i took a deep sigh before i opened the house door because i already know what's going to happen once i enter this door

thank god that today i don't have a school because actually i don't feel like going, i wanted to take it as a chance i woke up so early like