You might need this melody https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SMdJdVAwGik

Knock…

Knock…

Knock…

Knocks in your door apartment startled you from your sleep.

  Who the hell visiting at this hour.

  1.30 AM

But then you remember,

The only person who will come at this hour and knocking at your door…

  It’s him

You jumped from your bed and heading to front door.

  Open it… or not… should I open it ?

   For him ?

Arguments in your head are flooding.

Knock…

Knock…

Knock…

The person front your door keep knocking and it makes you hesitated even more.

  Breath breath breath

  Just welcome him

  Everything’s will be okay

You ensure yourself.

Slowly, you open the door.

  There he is

White shirt soaked from  sweats, loosen tie and exhausted face look straight into your eyes.

  “ Hi… sorry…”

Two words coming out from his mouth

  “ Come in ”

He entered your apartment.

  “ I’m here to — “

  “ I’ll be back .“

You knew what was he going to say. But you’re too tired to listen of those words.

You decided to just make a glass of hot chocolate for him.

  It’s his  favorite.  

Tired face, messy hair and and weary eyes. You can see him from the kitchen. It’s kind of unbelieveable that he is here.Yes, after all this time. How many times you saw him at this hour with the same look and condition.

  “ Drink it. “

  “ Thank you “

Silenceness enfold the moment.

  “ Hmm… I… I… am... “

He tries to start the conversation.

  “ Stop it. I know. “

   I know

 “ Please, listen up…”

He sounds so tired and hopeless

  “ Soonyoung… Don’t you tired with all of this, do you ? ”

  “ I do… “

  “ Then... why do you still like this ?”

  " I...I don't know. I don't know what to do with myself. There are a lot of things happen going on... "

  " It goes the same to me, Soonyoung..."

It feels bitter when you call his name this time.

  " You were gone. "

There. Those words. You have been keeping it for too long.

  " Honey. No, I'm here. I'm still here. Always, with you...."

  " Yes, you're here. Physically. But your heart... is it still there ? for me ? "

The atmosphere got stiff.

He can't answer your question right away.

  " I'm sorry..."

He said.

  " You don't have to... I'm the one who need to apologize. "

  " Honey... "

  " I'm truly sorry for everything. All those time you spent your life with me, it must been hard. I'm so sorry I can't  

   make you happy, I can't be someone who you wanted to be and I can't be always by your side..."

   " Wrong. You said it all wrong. You lied to me, Honey " 

He takes your hand and hold it into his palm, firmly.

  " I'm the one who acted like that. I'm too selfish. I... I don't think about your feelings. I'm too ignorant toward you.    

    You must be tired of me. "

  " I'm tired... Yes I am. I'm tired of you, Soonyoung... I hold onto you, I put my trust on you, I give my all to you. But    

    you..."

All those words you have been keeping it inside, you burst it all out. 

He stares right into your eyes.

No words come out from neither your mouth, nor him.

No need mouth to speak the words, no need gesture to explain it. It's just your eyes and his, staring at each other.

There. Those eyes. 2 hazel eyes you love the most.

It's back.

The old Soonyoung is back. 

You know it's back. His stare is different then before.

You can't hold it back anymore. All tiredness, sadness and anger you pour it out through your tears.

  " I'm sorry... I'm so sorry. You got hurt because of me, I made your life hard even more, I can't give all you need, I

    can't protect you properly, I can't give my time when you need it the most. "

You just cry in front of him.

He throws his arm around you. Hold you tightly.

  " I'll change. I'll change for you, honey. I promise "

  " Let's change together. Let's make it up together, you and I... Soonyoung "

  " Yes, yes we... us... together "

He your hair and look at you in the eyes.

  " Thank you and I'm sorry for everything. Put your trust on me again and I won't give it up, I promise. I won't let  

    you go. "

  " Keep your promise. "

  " Yes I will, I will keep my promise for you honey, for you. "

He put his forehead against yours and he touched your face.

  " So... "

  " Welcome back, Soonyoung... welcome home..."