Holy moly you guys.

I really hate posting these type of updates that isn’t a chapter. But hear me out.

A screenwriter once said:

“First act is as important as the final act, because nothing’s more terrifying than blank holes starting to appear in the middle of the story”

It’s not exactly what he said, but it’s something similar to that and that hit me hard. He deleted his tweets, but this is his account if you want to check. 

And this is my dilemma right now. How to get from point A to point B. The and finale of this story has been mapped out and ironed. But the the middle part—I’m struggling a lot. Here’s my outline of this story to give you an idea how bad it is.

(Chapter 6 outline is plain blank)

Also, I didn’t realize it has been 3 months since I updated this. So after I decided to write again, the plot became blurry to me (Good thing I did an outline).

If you guys hadn’t pointed it out or given your feedback, I won’t have any clue or I would still be struggling making things up just to fill the gaps, just to get to point B. I really work better with feedbacks, good or bad or worse. I can separate opinion from critique...in any language, if I might add. I’m not trying to fish feedbacks here, it’s just that it’s like brainstorming. Sometimes, your feedback/critiques give me ideas to make things better, to learn. So with that said, one simple feedback gave me a better idea how to execute this plot. However >_<, I need your cooperation and patience since I have decided to rewrite some parts of this story. Chapters 1-3 would stay the same. But 4 onwards, I have to do something about it. I won’t change a lot but…

Spoiler: I’m cutting off Sehun’s character. 

I also felt it too that  adding another character feels like it would be too much...too much for you, and too much for me. I guess I just needed someone to call me out. I'm sure the intention wasn't bad, I took it in the good way, and I’m glad I received it. Thank you thank you again! Now I’m more excited to write this again. (But I still have other priorities T_T)

Of course, I didn’t want to be too hasty with my decisions. So before posting this, I created a rough summary/outline what would happen next and to see if the new idea I have is feasible. So far, so good. *cross fingers* I really wish I have all the time in the world. Expect double-triple updates just so you don't feel you went back from the start. 

I’m really really sorry T____T I’m really ashamed to be giving you slow updates, and then this change. If I’m gonna be very honest, this is a really hard plot for me haha. Worse than math, I’m telling you. Worse. I hope you would still support the story. I promise to make a better comeback. I can’t promise, though, if my writing would get any better, but I will do my best to fill in those holes and to give you a good story, if not better. Thank you for understanding! <333

Chapter 4-6 would stay up for another 3-5 days. Maybe some would leave feedback and/or give me more ideas hehe. 

PS: Remember that chapter 4 was my #writersblock chapter? haha. I think that's where it all started lol

Okay maybe I’m gonna be extra shameless while I’m here, Maybe while waiting for updates, you can check out some of my fics. I just created my most subbed fic a trailer! Maybe you want to watch it then read hehe. It’s only a oneshot, anyway.

Read it 

Again, I hope you guys are safe! Tough times, we have. Despite the quarantine, you’d think I’d have more time to update, but sadly, no. Still pretty busy :( Let’s hope this pandemic ends soon!