Today, I had a major mood swing and self harmed while I was at school. I suddenly got really angry and cutted myself while I was in the toilet cubicle. I regretted it after a moment when I realised that I had done it too deep. I even lied down on the floor and sort of semi-passed  out - sleeping for 10 minutes before I got up and wrapped the cut in my own bandages and headed off to lessons.

Lessons weren't great, I went throuh my first lesson in a lot of mental pain and a sickening feeling in my stomach. That's when I sort of realised I couldn't bottle it up anymore. At break time I rushed around and found one of my best friends and pulled her to an isolated area of the school and spiled everything. I was in tears and I just had to let everything out, it was driving me crazy.

My friend guided me to the student sevices and I was sat down with one of the learning mentors and medics of the school. It took me a while, but I slowly let them inspect the cuts and let them clean it. I also told them everything about what I've been feeling for the past 4 months.

They asked me if I was going to cut again and all I could do was answer 'I don't know'. To be honest I realy don't know. After this mornings event I really scared the out myself, but cutting has been my way of coping with other pain. They've now organised an appointment for me to see the school nurse next week. I told them I would go, but I won't promise that I'll do everthing she tells me. My mood switches and I sometimes don't want people's help.

Now... They've already contacted my parents about it and I'm home now. All I need to do is wait for them to come home from work. I'm a bit worried about what they're going to say to me.

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I just want to say thank for supporting me for the past few months.