Hey everybody! well... I'm sure you've heared about recent news about Tao's health condition(T_T) he's been sick for awhile now but instead of improving it's getting worse as the time passes by! going to emergencies,coughing non-stop, falling down hard while performing, throwing up in the backstage is all we hear from him these days and it is really heart aching when I see him suffering(T_T) surely he is not the only one!!! last week I saw a video from Lay who looked extremely exhausted as he was trying hard to keep himself awake... I really can't keep his tired image out of my head when he put his head on the piano to rest for a short time(-_-) we shouldn't forget that Luhan left EXO for the same reason and so did Kris. we all know that he had to deal with more pressure~ it may not sound good but NOW I'm somehow happy he left soon enough to not see s like this or not exprience these things himself, I'm sure I would have gone crazy if I had to watch him going to hospital or walking as he has leaned to his manager for help!! it still bothers me how people sometimes mention him as selfish or when I remember everyones reaction back to MAY 15th... and I have to admit it myself that I was one of those people who somehow blamed him for destroying everything and destroying dreams!! but not NOW any more~ a little late to believe in him I know But it is his own fault afterall~ cause he didn't say anything to us,niether did Luhan but still he let others see how much he was suffering but.....NO! I'm glad that Kris didn't want others to see... he was the LEADER afterall~ the leader that always was considered as STRONG ~ so how do you think we would feel watching him weak,sick and exhausted as much as Tao and Lay do these days?? maybe you think that he could have stayed to protect them or sth BUT how?? as much as being a leader is important but there is not much thing they can do! they are just like any other members in company(>_>) who knows?! let's think different... Kris did protect s even by his leaving,by taking the risk to be the first one who leaves...he took all the blames and the worst reactions upon himself,he dared to be considered as a selfish leader who left s for his good and what happened when Luhan left?! no one blamed him,no one judged him and instead of crual reactions everyone sent him supportive messages and NOW......! from two or less months ago there was rumors about Tao and one of Korean members leaving EXO and now when everyone sees Tao's bad health codition they think that Tao may or may not leave EXO!!! there is even people who think that he really should leave EXO to not suffer any more and ignore his promise to ALWAYS stay with EXO!!! there are already alot of things planned for EXO for the next months ; comback and new album,concerts,new programs that show he won't get any rest in ages!!!!!!(>_<) it was really hard to see how much he was trying to convince others with a "I'm fine!" thing whereas he was that weak that he couldn't walk on his own and just with his manager's help~ I'm not sure if all these things are leading us to losing another beloved member BUT it really makes me wonder why the Chinese members are suffering THE MOST?!?! I really can't find the reason out! Is it because they have to deal with both physical and emotional problems???! don't really SM think that they may lose another member?or....maybe they don't care? I really don't know what to do or what to think ! it's just that I won't feel bad if we have to lose another one,at least not this time any more~ it is really hard watching them like this...WE BLAMED KRIS BUT LET HIM GO,WE LET LUHAN GO WITH SUPPORT AND MAYBE THIS TIME WE SHOULD SUPPORT HIM TO LEAVE!!! ("-_-) eventhough I hope this doesn't happen at all...NEVER... and I hope he gets well soon but I wish we could do sth for them but ...NOTHING! all we can do is to pray for things not get any worse~