Before the year ends, there are almost 365 days that I've encountered. Many things had come and go. Many things had happened. I've became sad. Happy. Angry. Hurt. Amazed. Shocked and many more. But how did 2014 really rocked my life? Hmm.

Before I was not a Kpop Lover. I am only an EXO lover. I only focused on them, on my love for every member, on my astonishment for everything they do--- them being all handsome, y and unintentionally seductive, or them being awesome, them being derp, being naughty, be dorks, immature, playful, be childlike.

I totally fell for them that I found it hard to let them go. And after some time, I've come to appreciate and love other Kpop Groups through and because of them.

The thing about kpop is when you watch them together, you feel like you're a part of them. The joyous bond you see among them makes you happy and a light aura embraces you because you can relate to what they do. : )

And now I am a proud EXO-L and a contented A.R.M.Y.

- 2014 made me embrace kpop more.  : )

2014 is a tragic year for Kpop.

Sounds true right? As I look back I think it's a worst year for the Kpop. But I chose  view all the things that happen after it may seem not really like that. Let me share what I recall:

- Kris filed a lawsuit nullifying his contract under SME.

- He left week before the group's (or the other members' only?) dream concert.

My Reaction: O______O  o__O  O___o ????????

Shocked, broken, sad, angry, not believing in the situation, hurt. T^T

I keep on denying at first. It's impossible for me to accept it that time. I just tell myself "Nah. Rumors are always rumors."

But then May 15 proved me wrong. Kris did really filed a lawsuit and that he wants to be out of SM. I was confused, shocked. Just like the most of people I wanted answers. I want to know why. I demand for the truth which no one really knows aside from the people involved. ;(

I cried, feeling the loss too. I feel every EXO fans who became emotionally disturbed, emotionally damaged. I feel the members who practiced, rehearsed and worked hard for their fans but ended up doing changes in the last minutes. They were psychologically, emotionally and physically hurt. That was a total chaos but still they chose to give everyone a best performance and lend their fans warm smiles even many know there are still traces of longing. Applauses and thumbs up for being professional. (The Happy Camp made me sad in the part when the issue of someone who left is opened. Tao and Lay shed the most tears and it ripped my heart. A man crying is my weakness.)

I became angry at  Kris but then in the end, I realized no one wanted this. I don't know the truth, so I should not take any side between Kris and EXO because the happening is never between them. It's between Kris and SM. EXO is just trapped and affected just like the confused fans.

I accepted the fact and supported both. I still continue to support and love them coz that's all I can do for them as a fan. Even it seems impossible for now, I keep on praying OT12 will be again complete.

- May of 2014 gave me a heartbreak, yet it also made me not only a mature fan but as a person. Teaching me to accept all things that come your way. Challenges makes us strong and only the toughest person are given the hardest tests. Because God knows we can do it maybe not alone, but all together.

- June 2014.

   Baekhyun and Taeyeon dating.

- I feel bad for the haters. Hah!

  BTS 1st year anniversary :D

- Proudly congratulating their hardwork for the past year. :D still confused though between V and Jin of who's gonna be my top bias. XD their comeback brought DANGER to my heart. And I need control to avoid having WAR OF HORMONES. XD

- August 2014

 EXO's official fandom. EXO-L :D

 The name denotes a deep meaning. Being between K and M makes fans including me, proud and special.

  EXO-L is a smart name.

  EXO is Love. <3

- September

  RIP Ladies' Code EunB and Rise. :'(

- October

  Another heartbreak 3

  Luhan's lawsuit made me emotionally drained again. T^T HunHan apart. : ( i feel our maknae.

  I am hurt, but stopping to love them didn't slipped in my mind unlike the others. It's immature to hate then just because they are not the OT12 anymore. It's immature to hate them because members left. It's not a heavy reason to hate someone. It's unfair. Unreasonable in my point of view. As I've said EXO taught me things especially about friendship. They've influenced me and I didn't regret any of the things they'd did to me.

- November

   Jin and .

  Jhope receives hate.

 Some fans are really narrow-minded. I don't get the way they think. *face palm* Why make big deal about small things. It's not like Jin is a . Good thing there are still clever ones who didn't bash, instead understood the situation and showered Jin and Jhope love and encouraging words. : )

- Haters gonna hate.

- Bashers gonna bash.

- Immatures are always immature.

  But those who are positive, will receive positive.

- December

 EXO bags awards from MAMA 2014.

 After all this time, EXO has proven that number of members has nothing to do with the quality of your performance. Through all the hardships, heartbreaks, hurt and pain, shedded tears and all disappointment, in the end something good has came. They deserve it after all. It's true that in every sadness is an equal happiness. : )

Proud of you EXO: D

DOH of my country (Philippines) plagiarism issue.

*face palm* I was embarrassed by the fact that they plagiarized, but I'm happy that they wanted good for the citizens. Among all departments, I think DOH is the most active.: )

The year is ending but rumors are still targeting EXO. =_= How nice. Thanks SINA for being so incredibly fast and updated. Tss.

Rumors of Tao and a Korean member to leave EXO.

EXO's disbandment.

- With Tao's personality (loyal, loving, sentimental) I doubt he'll do that. I was afraid of course because rumors this year does come true, but I don't let my emotion overwhelm my trust for him. He has the qualities of the true friend anyone wanted. EXO is lucky to have him. And they are all lucky to have each other. Though some already left first. But at least, they've given the chance to be together in a span of time. Right?

For the rumored Korean member, I wonder why he's rumored (again if ever) I have some in my mind but I pray and I believe there's none.: )

DISBANDMENT? Of course time will come they will disband. But I wish it's not too soon. EXO will disband and focus on their own careers but their friendship will remain special. They will still remain connected. Memories will remain intact and none of us can change that.: ) Disbanding has nothing to do for a friendship if they really treasure each other.

Time will pass anyway. We can either spend it creating the life we wanted or spend it living the life we don't want and forever regret. The choice is ours.

Kris and Luhan chose not to be under SM anymore even if it means leaving their friends whom they've considered too as family. Maybe it hurt them, and we are too. But it's their happiness after all. They chose to go solo and shine more, so let them. It's not like we can tell them what to do or  not. It's their decision of course, and again, it is their happiness, though many of us are disappointed that other members are not a part of it anymore. They chose to live in a different world and not to be with the OT10 to gain their freedom back. That was what they chose. Sad and painful but that's the truth.: (

I've come to think, we people cannot laugh on the same joke again and again but we keep on grieving and crying for the same thing all over again. Maybe because the thing we are crying for is that special.

And I am like that. EXO has been a part of my life. They have earned a special spot in my heart, and maybe that's why I feel sad for the things that hurts them. I don't know, but aside from their jaw-dropping handsome features and awesome talents, their uniqueness being individual and fun personalities made me wait for everything they can do to amuse me more.: D

To those who were former EXO lovers but ended up hating them. Continue being like that and earn your karma points. Tsk. You'll gain something from that. I know it.. ^____^

And to those who continue loving EXO after all the chaos, and doesn't even think of stopping, let's be together: D we'll ride the journey our dear aliens/wolves has started. I am proud of you and I know EXO is too. =)

They need true and strong support from people who are true and strong too. Long live people of EXO Planet!! ^___^

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Aside from my life in the Kpop world, 2014 introduced me in another wide world where people doesn't meet each other personally but bond like they did.

I joined AFF due to a reason but I never thought I could easily and quickly make friends. =)

To my fellow Kyungsoo lovers: who is

The first person who first commented in my first fan fic attempt, Shaf-unnie:) and to Kkaebsong365, a friend who commented on almost all of my fic >_< haha

THANK YOU VERY MUCH! THANK YOU FOR BEING A FRIEND AND BEING COOL ONES TO TALK TO : D I really enjoy befriending you ^^ I wish you a HAPPY NEW YEAR & ALL GOOD LUCK =D

Let's continue to talk and be okay with it for awhile XD and by the right time comes, I'll make sure to meet you and do all the things we're just imagining for now ^___^

God bless  all and have a fun-filled new year!: D

Happy New Year guys:)