"Have a happy married life bias" its like a parting line from some cliche angst fic. Knowing that my first bias--Super Junior's Sungmin--already got married kinda . It is because of him that I am now feeling the existence of what people call a 'heart' and I feel it shattering. Chos. Its still whole and Im not hurting haha but there is this weird feeling something I cant explain damn. I feel ty because hello this is my bias of course at one point in my life I loved and stanned him like no one else duh I feel a creeping sense that someday (not soon I hope)my other bias(es) will also walk down the aisle with their wives & husbands and have wonderful babies and . Theres also this small part of my heart thats hurting because Ill be a hypocrite if I tell you that I never imagined a future with sungmin HES A BIG PART OF MY LIFE HES MY FIRST BIAS THATS LIKE MY FIRST LOVE (I dont even have a first love damn sungmin) Now that he got married I realize that I now have to move on. oh my gosh I sound like a high-schooler who just broke up with her boyfriend yuck hahahaha but seriously now,I realize how big a part of my life he is. His face is on the mug I use everyday to drink Milo in. His last name is literally on my signature ( my sign is "Lee Paukla in hangul) her boyfriend) he may (or may not)be the reason why Im still single right now HAHAHA He though is the reason why I stumbled into this kpop world where I met all thos great friends over the internet and all that but the fact that depresses me most about this marriage is that it proves to me that life is not always gonna give you a happy ending. You see,I dreamt of a future with sungmin but I realized how delusional I was being so instead,I started shipping him with kyuhyun...AND DAMN DID THEY SAIL but yeah they didnt end up together so blah blah the universe lol Well,I am still a ful pleged ELF even with my bias getting married. I will still support him and his endeavors and I wish for him to have many wonderful looking babies as talented as him and of course,may Kima Sa Eun and he be in love forever hahahahaha happy wedding sungminnie best wishes pumpkin (Lol at this blog tho such delusions)