For those who care to know.

For those who have been messaging me asking about the reasons why I did what I did, I will just answer you all here so its clearer.

First of all, I would like to apologise if I had made you sad.

I wanted to leave the Inner Circle fandom. Yes, dramatic, I know, and childish, but I was hurt. It wasn't because people hurt me directly, but being on twitter, I have seen many things and most of all, I have been bombarded with constant whining. I could understand the whining, for the most part. There were many legitimate reasons to whine. And I was one of the whiners too. 

But the whining slowly grew worse, and the fandom have evolved into this....I don't know how to say it......I kinda compare IC to a sibling who cries "unfair" when her sister gets gifts on a birthday (Which I did btw, when i was 6 years old!!!) And then there are the people who try to dictate what the fandom should feel and do, the constant fighting between ships and individual member stans and hating on iKon, YG and the constant shading. They were annoying and it constantly drives me up the wall but still, not the main reasons why I did what I did.

The last straw came when some Inner Circles started hoping Winner will leave YG, or that YG does not deserve Winner.When I keep hearing those words I realised my love for the collective YG family is bigger than my love for Winner, which is not true for many Inner Circles and I understand that. But it hurt to keep hearing those words. I don't know how to explain why I am hurt, it may be strange to some of you, the only near explanation I can give is that- K-pop is my life (Yes, I am THAT pathetic) and YG family constitutes 80% of my K-pop life. I am a YG stan through and through, and the hate that YG (Yang Hyun Suk sajangnim) gets from Inner Circles hurt me, hurt my feelings. 

I left twitter mostly because of that, because I wanted to get away from the hate (Also because it was ruining my real life. I couldn't concentrate on work, I couldn't concentrate on my studies, I couldn't do anything except wallow in pain. Dramatic, I know, but its 100% true. I am going to get psychological councelling, don't worry). But the hurt was still there, even after leaving Twitter and I got angry. I got angry at the Inner Circle fandom for hurting me, even though I know they didn't mean to. And I wanted to retaliate but there is no way to do so, so I decided I will leave the fandom, and take all my stories with me. So I did.

A friend of mine also told me that removing my stories is also a form of retaliation, and at first I was like "Good, Then so be it, If one person is sad because I removed them then I feel justified." But that was just childish and immature and stupid. So here I am, posting them again, though I doubt I will be on twitter again. Or even if I make twitter account again, I don't think I will be involved in the fandom as I was before.

Also there seem to be a slowly brewing war against us namsong shippers (me leaving the fandom didn't mean I stopped loving Winner, coz they are wonderful and talented and they are YG artists even though some of you don't want them to be, and it didn't mean I stopped shipping namsong, coz they be the real deal ^_^) and some people might think I have gone into hiding because of those reasons. It is not so, and I am not afraid. So here they are, my stories, non-shippers can tear these apart, its okay. I just wanna show namsong is loved by many and we shippers will not be scared into hiding. 

But I will never call myself a part of the Inner Circle, and IC's don't need me anyway. I am such a wet blanket :(