/TEARING MY HAIR/

/GARBLED SCREAMS/ 

/FRUSTRATED TEARS/

/resigned sigh/

The process I do through when I sit down to write.

People reading this may think "Why write when it causes you so much stress?" and it is a legit question. But I think anyone writing here will agree with me, sometimes there is that insane need to write. It's like a voice inside my head telling me, whispering "Write. Write.Write" and I sit down and open my laptop and my fingers just freeze on the keypad. My brain is completely blank. It's like I don't know left from right or what the word even means. I forget all my English, all the writing techniques I have studied for so many months, my plot bunnies all jumped and scattered away and no matter how hard I try I can't put them back in my thinking cap.

/sigh/

And when I am away from the computer I am filled with so many ideas. I will be walking on the road and see something which inspires me and I tell myself "Remember this. It'll look reall good in black and white." I will be listening to songs and be like "Damn! This song reminds me of namsong. I wanna write a story of them based on ths." I will be watching movies and there will be parts which just screams "Incorporate me in a fic please!" and I'll be like "Hell yeah! This will be perfect for the next chapter I have in mind for that story.

Then I sit down to write and poof. The same process all over again.

And the only reason I am writing this blog post right now is because of that very reason. My heart needs to write, to put words on paper (or laptop screen), and all my inspiration has left me high and dry and I am reduced to writing a long boring blog post about "writing". What do I even know about writing anyway? I am a sad excuse of a wannabe writer who should not be allowed to taint the literary world with my stories*.

I am so done.

Not really, I still wanna write.

But I am so so done!

*Plagiarising Devi's words lol