Ive never felt so useless stupid and pointless in all my life save one time... why am i crying? Why do i spend all my time crying lately? I want it all to end but will it ever? I dont want to be rich...i dont want to be famous...to be in love or to have a good job or be talented or pretty...none of those things matter...i just...for one day...i want to be okay...if i had one wish in the world...id just wish that i could experience for one day what its like to be okay.