Okay, so my BFF bought me tickets to see SHINee in Dallas on the 24th. It was SO awesome. First off, we made the 5 hour drive there in about 6 hours (heavy rain) But we got there on time. Waited in the long line until they let us all into the building. Talked with some super cool girls standing near us. Got our seats and it turns out that the girls beside us and in the row in front of us were also only their because thier bff/bf bought them the tickets as a Bday present! Then the concert started and it was AMAZING. Alot smaller than the other SHINee World concerts I've seen (on DVD) but no less Amazing. Key told this hilarious story. They sang all the best songs. Taemin did a solo and his dancing was awesome. Minho spoke English and that was adorable. I screamed so loud that I thought my throat would bleed. It was one of the best and most memorable days of my life and it makes me really wish that I could get back into writing fanfics (which has been impossible for me to do lately) I know that I keep saying that I'm going to finish all my open fics and start writing again, but I haven't been able to. I've been going through a really tough time. I've been battling depression, and had to be hospitalized several times for it. I've had to move alot and have been homeless on several occasions. (In fact, I current live in a tool shed behind my grandparents house) and I've been unable to hold down a steady job while also fighting my depression and anxiety. So, it's been a really tough time for me. But I come on this site and I see comments for stories that I wrote years ago, still being read, and it makes me feel good. Makes me wish that I could still do this, still write fic. But I try to start, I think up the idea, I pull up the blank word processor, and I stare at it for half an hour and I'm blank. Where words used to just flow out of me like a waterfall, there's just...nothing. And I worry that you guys wouldn't like anything I could write now. I worry that my style and subject matter would change, would be percieved differently than it did a few years ago. I worry that my OTPs are no longer relevant or that people won't want to ready my stories because I don't know any knew bands from the past 2 years to write about. I worry and worry and end up just deciding to give up. Some day, maybe, I wish some day soon, I would be able to write again. I miss it. I miss the community I built on this website before I stopped writing, and I wish I had that again. I'm fighting every single day to get better. I've got a good job right now working for an Urgent Care Clinic. I've got an amazing boyfriend (he's British!) who I'm about to move in with and who helps to take care of me when I can't do it myself. Little by little, I'm making my way back.