OK so I don't follow kpop news anymore. The only news I get, I get from tumblr. And as far as I knew, nothing really bad happened in the past few days. Although, suddenly, I saw a few posts. I began to see a few posts that are very disconcerting. 

WHY are they apologizing to fans?! Why? Why?

Ok maybe I know why... I just don't have the balls to check the tags to confirm my suspicion. Because I'm not really in the mood for some violent outburst. Ok? No.

I, to be honest, was a bit taken aback with the news. I'm just not a person that's going to be comfortable with making such a huge decision in my life, after only, what, dating my partner for a few months? But to be fair, we can never trust what people write in the media. Nope. And that made me think, maybe they've been together for longer. But you know, to make more 'oomph', they told us that it was a fresh relationship. 

And I'm sorry for coming to conclusion without thinking further about what might've happened. But that was the only knowledge that I have, so... 

But even so... I'm really not someone who's comfortable with anything that's permanent. I might be impulsive, but only for things that I know I can still change. So I just have one question... Are you sure? Are you perfectly sure? Because I don't want to see you in a few years getting a friggin divorce. I don't want that. I just want you to be happy. So are you sure? 

But well, in the end we'll never know. It's your life. It's your decision. I can't trust the media so... I have faith in you. I hope you know the best things for your life. 

And for the ing fans. How could you even call yourself fans when the people you're fanning about began to apologize to you (Except when they really did a screw up)? No, okay? I was just so happy with who I choose to be in this past few months, because they show how much they appreciate us. How much we mean to them. And they love us, I know they do. And why, how, why would you hurt that trust by suddenly turning like this. Why. They love you. They've showed how much they appreciate you. But you just have to screw it up, hm?

Maybe it's not happening. I haven't check the tags, because I don't want to (because the last time I checked, quite a long time ago, some of the posts upset me so much that I began to have an identity crisis. And I don't want to feel that way again right now), and the people I follow at tumblr has been very supportive. But it just seems that there are some. Some that disagree with his coice. and thus they apologized. For what? For living? For having a life? 

He's not a property. He's not yours? He can have his own life if he wants to? 

I don't know, maybe I'm just ranting for nothing. But why would they apologize then? It must've been because they think their action upset some of us. 

When in reality it shouldn't have.

Why would you even be upset about? Do you still have any speck of hope that he would what, end up with you? No! No! No, just let that thought go, and you'll feel much more liberated in your life. Ok? What? Do you think this is a scam made by the company to divert the attention from all the ing storm that is happening in the other side? Maybe. You never know. Maybe yes, maybe no. Maybe this is really what he wanted to do. Maybe this is not. I don't know. 

But with the information given to me, there's nothing more that I can do but to say "GREAT! Congratulation! I'm so happy for you. Go. Have some kids. Be happy."

I know we love him, but if you're having 'that' kind of love, then you might notice that all your life, you've only been pretending. Without him, your life will be okay. And without you, his life will also be okay (maybe not really because his life kindda spin with the help of the fans). But his life will still be filled with happiness that you will never understand because you were never there to experience it. OK? So just let it go. 

Is it even confirmed though? Because I just heard it from my friend and read it from tumblr. It would be very embarassing if it was just a hoax article... 

Anyways... Rant finished.