sigh sorry i can only rant here because it's the only place where i can tbh but
lemme tell u this
even if it's painful
as long as my beloved is able to love someone instead of what she always do, which is run away
and as long as she can find someone who can be there to take care of her
then I don't mind even if it isn't me.
Like, i thought it'll be excruciating but it's only a nagging pain. which is weird, because i'm usually so green with jealousy i look like elphaba but
for her I don't mind, i truly dont. as long as she can find someone to take care of her i really don't mind if it is not me.
love doesn't always have to be romantic anyway.
(although all this time i thought she might be it for me because she's the first one for me who doesn't make me want to run away)