So...

I've finally cannot hold on to my silence.

Quite a lot had happened since my last post. And I've been tempted to write my thoughts. But...after reading again my previous posts, weeks or months after I published those, I feel like a fraud or something. Like I'm pretending to even have an inkling of what's going on. My fanfic is different. I can do anything with all the delusions, my own suppositions, imaginations, and of course, the facts and images.

Anyway, with Jiko practically cast in stone nowadays, Daragon is finally sinking like the Titanic. But just like the movie, some--or many--appler hearts are still ticking because they're like on Energizer. Or should I say they're like Celine's? Her heart will go on and on.

Then BOOM! Somebody drops a bomb. A short clip that expounds on that sole picture of blond GD whose hand is resting on also-blond Dee's head--or her hat. Not as "clear-meaninged" as Dispatch's recent scoop. But still sweet and maybe just a tad romantic. I think the pic came out days or weeks after the event. But the vid was released a year after. As if someone's celebrating, yep, an anniversary: reminiscing those moments, etcetera, etc... And which just merely, only, coincided with Dispatch's revelation.

So my first question is, WHO IN THE WORLD RELEASED THAT CLIP? Has any of the very desperate applers tried to trace the original source? Because I still have to see him/her/it being credited. Applers are supposed to be good in investigating, right? Knowing the source could lead to on the WHY NOW story. Like: Is Dara such a supportive friend of Ji's, she's willing to be a decoy once again? But, the vid hasn't made it to entertainment news/sites. Has it? So who benefits--or gets destroyed--by its very belated release?

Okay, the clip gets blurry when enlarged (thanks to ryelsi) and my vision is not exactly 20/20. So yeah, I really couldn't follow every movement made by the people in the vid. No, it shouldn't just be him and her. We should also consider CL and the rest of the gang surrounding them. I'm not sure if CL had already stepped behind Dara and was talking to the others when Ji pulled Dara to him. Bcoz if Daragon is/was--whatever--real and is "the secret of secrets" I would've expected CL and Dee to be scandalized by Ji's action. Yeah, CL the Daragon protector from years past and Dara of "I'd rather keep my relationship private". Of course, they were probably less concerned after sipping some inhibition-killer drinks. And Ji could've gotten pretty jealous after the Bieber stole an unplanned kiss. Wait--was Justin already there before that scene? If not... Was Dara talking to Marshall Bang before she was "dragged" away? Marshall who supposedly came to the venue with Dee and Lydia. Ji and CL came together with the other group. Or as their tweets were trying to show. Ji could be jealous of Marshall's closeness with Dee.

And what about the rest of the gang? No one seemed to be staring with obvious concern at the two. Of course not everyone is shown, and it was dark and blurry with all the blinking lights and movements.

On the other hand, Ji could've just wanted a selfie with Dee and he decided that her head was a nice place to rest his hand for awhile keke. Or he's been coveting her cap but later realized there were too many cameras around to catch him in action. Ok, Stop. Or he thought Dee had already drunk more than enough, and needed to be reminded about her alcohol limits.

Now, lemme get to "Jiko the decoy". So for the past year, applers have gotten greedy. At least the international fans. I don't understand Korean so I really have no idea on what's going on with Nyongdal shippers. Anyway the English-speaking/writing shippers have become very very demanding about their wants. They've been clamoring for a coming-out, a revelation. This was last year, months before Kpop relationships began popping out quite voluntarily. AND...it really bothers me that some shippers do manips that show Daragon in very suggestiveslashintimate positions. If they truly love and respect their idols, and knowing Dara--never mind Ji and his--well, "ersions" LOL. Dara who often dresses, by choice, in larger than life clothes. I could understand if the manips were of Skydragon bcoz, well, CL projects this sensual persona--you get what I mean, right? But sweet shy awkward Dee... (Sigh) Can shippers give them privacy at least with the manips? Anyway, the clamor could get loud and demanding to the point of tagging the idols themselves. What the..??? And all I could think of then was that the more they demand or ship so die-hard to the point of virtually trespassing Ji and Dee's privacy, the more you won't get anything from them. So which could explain, somehow, the Jiko moments recently.

However, Kiko, her sis and their family and friends must be very strong people to bear all the hate that she's been getting from applers, other shippers, and GD-is-mine fans. If she's only covering for Daragon. Or some other girl that Daragon must be decoying for also. And to the Kiko/Jiko/GD-bashing applers, please, just imagine Dara instead of Kiko in those Jiko moments, and Dee later is virtually killed over and over by other fans... Just imagine the hurt it will cause her. I understand that many applers were Dara fans before liking Daragon. That's why I've been seeing some double standards: It's okay if Darahae or Chandara, etc is real, but Jiko, Skydragon, etc are simply unacceptable and intolerable.

Okay, I think I've written all my thoughts on this. And may feel stupid later on when I revisit this post. Then I'll be back to holding my silence once more.

Peace.