I still remember the first time I saw you singing 'Into Your World' and it was then that I heard your angelic voice and thought, he takes my breath away...and you did, every single time. And then I remember, it was the exo's ninth teaser that I realised you were the one I would stan and eventually, fell for.

There were times I thought about how brave you had been; coming to a new country without any friends or family to rely on, setting foot in a place where you did not know the language at the tip of your tongue and still, you managed to do it. You did all of that so that you could go after your dream even though you thought the chances were slim. You did it so that one day you would be able to stand on the stage to show and share your talent with the world. And I can't thank you enough for going through all of this and not once giving up.

In many ways you're more than just a singer to me; you inspire me, whether it'd be you coming all the way to Korea by yourself or giving it your all whenever you're up there singing; you make me want to do better, whether it'd be you trying to beat your record time for the rubik's cube or you getting on the cable car despite your fear of heights, you make want to hold on till the end and never lose hope.

I will forever be eternally grateful that I got the chance to have such a wonderful bias. I can't put into words just how lucky I am. You were worth the tears, the laughter and everything. I don't regret stanning you because in these past years, you've always been the spark in the darkest nights for me. No matter how difficult and tough my days have been, you were always there at the end of the road.

But if there was one thing that I truly regret, it would be not having the chance to see you in real life; I was never able to see and hear you in person and to thank you. But having said that, I shouldn't dwell on these things because just being able to watch you grow and pursue your dream is enough for me, even if it is silently from afar. 

stars. all these times, stars shine for us. they guide us during the darkness and provide us with the path home yet when we're safely home, stars don't have their own home to return to. they continue guiding others because that's their job. we may forget that their job is tiring, frustrating and sometimes quite lonely. people say stars shine the brightest during the night. as for me, luhan, you shine the brightest when you're happy, healthy and smiling so get well soon!

You've always been guiding us home Luhan, let us now do it for you. Letting you go is not easy especially since you've been such a big part of my life but as long as you're happy, I'll also find a way to be happy. I will never forget you and I hope that one day I will be able to see you standing on stage once again with your brothers. I love you, always have, always will ♡

Welcome home Lu。

I don't vid often nowadays because of schoolwork and the lack of creativity nowadays but it was because of this that I opened my sony vegas once again. Opening it gave me so many memories that I truly cherish and this vid is dedicated to my first and possibly last bias I will ever have, Luhan.