i remember reading in the morning that kris is going to leave exo...

my friend and i were like 'nah this is a joke. bull. this can't be. i don't believe this , such a troll' the moment i read that i wasn't even a single bit of sad i was normal like nothing happened, i didn't believe it...

but now after kris really left, and then jessica only two weeks ago...i feel different about luhan

there were already lots of rumours saying luhan will leave exo, and i knew he might take a break like sulli - more like i HOPED he would just go hiatus !

so we were kind of prepared of his departure...however this morning since i knew this is true...i felt so sad, he is my bias #1

when kris left or when baekhyun dated, i was sad and shocked but i couldn't feel the pain what other fans feel when their bias is leaving/dating....

i was so sure that luhan would be the last person to leave exo, so i never worried about him until he got sick...i can't believe my nightmare became reality.

sehun has been ruining my bias list since a long time and i admit there were times when i fangirled more over him than over luhan, but luhan was ALWAYS MY #1 !!!!

i remember the first picture that i've ever seen of exo, was a pic of luhan during their photoshoot for W Korea it was kind of above his head and from the side, i only thought 'whooah he is SO SKINNY but so handsome, where does SM find those handsome guys ~'

i remember watching his teaser with kai 'time control' and i was absolutely AMAZED by their dance, their fast, sharp and powerful movements. Back then i was so mad at the cameraman because he kept focusing on kai and luhan's hair covered half of his face - making it for me unable to see his face, when i wanted to see him so bad. Unti now i still wait for a full track of 'time control' in their future albums...

My friend introduced me to EXO, her bias is Luhan so ofc she only talked about him when she showed me HISTORY luhan caught my attention but after watching history several times other members caught my attention as well and my bias was kris, (because he looks like wild senpai from vampire knight, especially in MAMA) and then lay. but after a while luhan caught my attention again - back to the roots ! and srsly THAT MOMENT IT WAS LIKE BAM AND I FELL FOR HIM; FOR HIS VOICE ! i remember the nights i COULDN'T SLEEP because i was so addicted to History but haven't downloaded on my iPod. i bought the MAMA album and downloaded the MV AND BOY I ALWAYS LISTENED TO HISTORY and EVERY night before going to sleep i would watch the mv and replay luhan's parts because of his voice. I managed to get the whole album into my TOP 25 songs on my iPod and History is #1 (i've listen to it nearly 1000 times !!!) ! Since then i always bpught EXO M albums because of his voice, sure baek chen and d.o are better singers but luhan's voice was heaven to me.

i couldn't believe how handsome yet pretty he is

- how fluffy his hair is

-how good he can dance

-how angelic he can sing

HE WAS THE BOMB THE PERFECT NAMJA TO ME

(i even got my german friend fangirling over him !)

I created this acc LULULAY !! LULU ! and even though sehun ruined my bias list a couple times i NEVER changed my profile pic, because i know he is the #1 :D

70% of all fanfics I've read here, are Luhan-fanfics - i read so many !

i downloaded a cropped version of 'miracles in december' with only luhan's parts, and listened to it all day and analyze how amazing his voice is haha

what i want to say is: That i love our deer luhan so much and will always continue to support him...even when i am super sad and part of me doesn't want him to leave (because exo makes awesome music)

get well soon and wish you the best LUHAN !