Yup.

As the title says, I’m leaving the K-Pop fandom. Well, actually I already left it.

I know you may think this is was an overly dramatic move, but I honestly see no point in continuing to love something which will bring me nothing but pain in the future.

When Kris left, I was devastated. I cried. I thought about his fans, s, and, oh God, I thought about Zitao. Zitao, the boy who had always relied on Kris upon his arrival, who always looked up to his cool and mysterious gege, who was always seen stuck with him in their debuting year. If we were sad, imagine the pain Zitao had gone through. Someone you trusted a lot on, gone. Just like that.

Now when it was announced that Jessica is no longer a part of Girls’ Generation, I shook my head and threw my hands in the air. “I’m done,” I said.

I’m not a fan of many girl groups. My favourite girl groups right now are only SISTAR and f(x). I don’t really consider myself a fan of 2NE1, but I like their music a lot. The same goes for Girls’ Generation. I like their music, but not the girly ones, and I could see why they are – well, were – SM’s Golden Girl Group.

Their vocals and stage presence are amazing.

I read through both Jessica’s first and official (second) statements. Never before have I been so pissed off and confused as to why both SM and Girls’ Generation gave her the boot for no particular reason. Is it honestly just because she has her own fashion brand to maintain now? This is the first time she’s doing something individual, and as far as I know, it’s rare that doesn’t show up for her schedules. The member I see missing the most was Yoona, mostly because she’s always called for drama filming and what not. The other members were missing from time to time as well doing their own individual activities, and the only time Jessica does something for herself and she gets kicked out???

ARE YOU ING KIDDING ME??? THAT’S THE STUPIDEST THING EVER.

Why would SM want to kick Jessica out? She was such a great asset to the company! She had the longest training time, and SM even gave her a second chance to audition after she failed her first because she was so nervous. Her voice, especially when harmonising with Taeyeon’s, is a great benefit to boost both the group and the company, because her voice is seriously one of a kind – a sweet tone but still strong. I feel nothing but great pity for her, spotted at NYC airport at 4am, flying twelve hours to Korea to fly to China with the rest of her Girls’ Generation members, only to be told that she’s no longer a member of the group.

Which vile, evil creature(s) would do that to her? The poor girl has been flying between NYC and Korea to manage both her fashion brand and schedules, and she even flew to Korea to go with you all to China for the first ever fanmeet in Shenzhen, and then she gets the pink slip? If you were Jessica, how would you feel? Wouldn’t you be greatly confused as well? She already received permission from her management twice to see if she could launch her brand, so why the sudden change of heart and animosity towards her now?

I am not sure whether the Girls’ Generation girls are close as they claimed to have been over the years, but for them to make Jessica choose between Girls’ Generation and her fashion label BLANC & ECLARE is the stupidest, most immature thing I have ever heard them do. They are grown women. They are above the age of twenty-one. You’d think they’d outgrown their cutesy, innocent mindset by now.

Okay, so enough rant. Time for the reason as to why I’m leaving K-Pop.

There has been too much dramas and scandals and painful things happening in the K-Pop industry this year. I’m not saying that Kris started it all (think about it though, the biggest scandals happened after his departure), but I’m saying that these scandals are huge. Big enough to cause confusion and  distress and betrayal in the K-Pop fandom.

After Kris left, it was officially announced that Taeyeon and Baekhyun are dating (I still think this is hilarious). Hyoyeon’s ex-boyfriend was seen in an assault. Sulli halted f(x) promotions, claiming that she was sick, then spotted hanging out with her boyfriend Choiza. There were even rumours of Luna dating someone. Then Jessica was told she had gotten kicked out of Girls’ Generation.

But none of them compares to, or ever will compare to, the deaths of Rise and EunB.

2014 is a dark year for K-Pop, especially for SM artists. It seems like it’ll only get worse from here. I went through 2009, which everyone said was the worst year for K-Pop because Hangeng, Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu filed a lawsuit against SM and left their respective bands. I have gone through that and emerged unscathed, and I thought I could go through this. But I imagine listening to a future EXO-M or Girls’ Generation song and I don’t hear Kris’ or Jessica’s voices in the CD. That made me realise that I actually can’t go through this anymore. They’re not even my favourite members, but they were my second favourite members, and it hurts me all the same.

Every member is equally important to every band. Except for Sulli from what I’m reading in the comment section on allkpop.com.

I’m not saying I’m taking Jessica’s side. We’ve only heard one side of the story, but this sounds as convincing as it can get. All we’ve heard from SM is that they’re continuing to support Girls’ Generation as eight members while supporting Jessica’s individual activities as well (bull-ing-). And all we’ve heard from the ever great leader Taeyeon are sobs and apologies falling from her lips. Taeyeon had rubbed off me the wrong way ever since I’ve started liking Girls’ Generation, and her apparent bitter relationship with Jessica isn’t making my biasness towards Jessica any better.

We need words. Cold, hard facts and not tears and apologies. We’ve had too many of those, and enough is enough.

Despite my quitting K-Pop, I am NOT (capitalised, bolded, italicised and underlined for you to see and understand) leaving the writing community. I loved to write ever since I was a kid, and I’m not going to stop. I will continue to write EXO (mostly Taoris) fics, because, seriously, K-Pop is the easiest fandom to work with in writing. Just don’t expect me to write so much nowadays. I have had plenty of ideas before, but they all scattered once the news of Jessica leaving Girls’ Generation hit me. Maybe when I hit a thousand subscribers I’ll write something for you all. idk. I’m still thinking about it.

TL;DR I’m quitting K-Pop, but NOT the K-Pop writing community. This might not seem to have any effect on you considering none of you are my friends (;A;) and that you only read my works, but I still want to let you all know. I don’t want to keep any of you in the dark.

I’ll continue to support the EXO boys, Kris and Jessica (I’m still not sure about the other eight Girls’ Generation members), but I don’t think I’ll be that into them as much as I was two days ago (where I declared that I will quit K-Pop. October 1^st. Remember that). I might occasionally look them up, see what they’ve been into and that’s it. I can’t deal with any more scandals. I know that it’ll hurt a lot more.

I hope you all understand and respect my decision.

Love you loads
— juku xx