So I don’t think much people will really see this. But I will attach a link to this at the end of one of my newer fics … which should be done in about a day(?). This isn’t really a rant or anything important now that I think about it. I just wanted to get this off my chest for a while now, but I think it’s kind of important? Idk, you be the judge.

 

To you online fic readers, I have one question to ask you. Do you have a LiveJournal account? If you answered no, then oh okay. To those who answered yes, then continue on. You don’t actually have to answer this in the comments tho.

 

Before you were in the EXO fandom, were you in any other fandoms? Were you in the SHINee and TVXQ fandoms? If no, then. If yes, have you seen an LJ user with the username pandragonriyong writing stories for both those fandoms? Have you read any of their stories? Did you think they were an amazing writer or did you hate their writing? It doesn’t really matter what you answer for this, because to be honest, I hated the writings of pandragonriyong.

 

Why?

 

Because I was LJ user pandragonriyong.

 

You see, after reading and rereading (and re-rereading) my fics, I became embarrassed of myself. I hated my SHINee works. I had started writing for the Jongkey pairing (which started out as Jonghyun topping to him bottoming) back in 2010, and I was, well … let’s just say that my writing style was a lot more immature than it is now. Don’t bother looking for my SHINee fics – I deleted them all. If you came across my journal and saw my explanation as to why I deleted them, then you would see that I replied to the comments that my mum found my LJ so deleted them in a flash because she wanted to read them.

 

That is not true at all, and I am terribly ashamed and guilty for lying.

 

As I had stated before, I was terribly embarrassed with my writing style. I put in a lot of cursing for no reason whatsoever, my stories had no flow, I just wrote as I go along (as in I had no initial plot or – only the beginning and the ending and I filled in whatever I could in the middle, making my stories go off a tangent), my characters had no depth, etc etc. To those who had read my SHINee fics, I sincerely apologise for deleting them all. It was an immature thing to do, and it was seriously at the heat of the moment. I instantly regretted once I hit the button.

 

And then my love for TVXQ. By the time I was writing for them, it was already November 2011. I was super- late with them, but that’s only because I never really gave them a chance at first. The first ever K-Pop (if you can consider this K-Pop) song I heard was Why Did I Fall in Love with You. Someone on my FaceBook page shared the music video, and I was curious so I watched it and instantly fell in love with what I thought was a Japanese band. I watched a live version and was “turned off” by Jaejoong (I didn’t know his name back then) because the rest were just standing there singing while he was bending over and belting and I was thinking “what makes you so special”, so yeah, that’s how everyone in LJ knew my love-hate for Jaejoong.

 

They didn’t ask for a life story, you dumbfu—

 

When I wrote for the Homin pairing (or more specifically Minho, because I like my biases bottoming), I felt like I was in my element. I was more mature with my writing, I had flow, I loved how I wrote the characters and how they turned out. All in all, I loved what I wrote (except for the occasional badfic that every author has) and I would always get giddy when I receive comments. The one I’m most proud of, not to mention my most popular, is the fic titled Timeless Love. Read it. I know you want to.

 

So you’re asking why did I suddenly change to jukukira on LJ and set up an AFF account? Well, that’s an easy question that can be answered in two simple points.

 

1) I wanted to try a new beginning. For both the SHINee and TVXQ fandoms, it wasn’t really hard to gain loyal readers, as long as you have the suitable fic to kickstart your writing debut. It was the same in the EXO fandom, when I debuted with Closer for Taoris. But I wasn’t sure if it had a lot of readers because what I had written was good, or because my name was quite (but not as quite) well-known in the other two fandoms, thus having the loyal readers read and comment. Because of this, I wanted a new change. It was hard getting my name recognised in LJ, especially since Taoris are considered dead in there. So I decided to give up on LJ and post here instead, where the people are much more open-minded, friendly and accommodating. And you guys still loving Taoris as much as I do is a super big bonus.

2) I forgot my password for pandragonriyong.

 

So yeah, in case you were wondering if pandragonriyong was “dead”, I am NOT. I just forgot my password. Sorry for not announcing it but … how was I supposed to announce it in an account which I forgot my password for.

 

Fun fact tho: I first discovered K-Pop at 2009. My very first favorite band was BIGBANG and my very first OTP was G-Ri. In case some of you don’t know, which you shouldn’t not know, G-Ri was (is? are they still strong? I wouldn’t know, my love for BIGBANG faded) the popular OTP of G-Dragon and Seungri. (look at you, juku, shipping leaders and maknaes since 2009.) They were known as the panda and dragon (look at you, juku, shipping pandas and dragons since 2009), so I kinda meshed those up to form “pandragon”. And you all know that G-Dragon’s real name is Jiyong, so I took the “ri” from Seungri and formed “riyong”. It’s stupid, I know, but I was around 14 – 15 back then (oh God I’m too lazy to even count how old I was back then) and I thought that a name like that was very cool. The fact that someone else on LJ figured it out (and even my OTP, good Lord) made me shocked as hell.

 

It took me a half-hour to come up with that name okay, don’t judge.

 

I came up with jukukira in about ten minutes, and it’s catchier and more easy to pronounce, so it’s the username I use everywhere. So if you see that username somewhere online, then huge chances are that it’s me.

 

So yeah. I just wanted to get this off my chest.

 

Love you loads
— juku xx