To my dear readers and fellow Sones,

I know that by now you have heard the absolutely shocking news about Jessica.

I will not say she has been forced out or that she has departed because the truth of the matter is that we do not know anything. The only official statement that we have received from SM is vague. Literally anyone can twist the words said by SM into depicting the company as absolute evil or that it was all Jessica’s fault or whatever netizens have been arguing about online.

The only thing that is certain is that there are many facts that we do not know and we will probably never know. At this point I am very conflicted. My heart hurts because from now on it will be 8 members of Girls’ Generation and Jessica Jung. That is the cold hard and overwhelming truth as of now.

There is a small flicker of hope inside of me that hopes that it was all just a crazy publicity stunt. But there is a larger and more rational part of me that knows that from this point on, no matter what happens, SNSD will no longer be the same SNSD that I fell in love with. But I will continue to love them nevertheless.

I cannot hate SM. E because although they appear to be the “bad guy” in this situation they are a corporation and business (like any other company) that seeks high amount of revenue for themselves. To us we see the girls as part of our family. To them SNSD is a profit earning group, nothing more and nothing less. Although this is just my speculations I believe that Jessica does indeed have her own individual goals just like any other person on this earth. I also believe that it must have been very difficult to balance those goals with the group activities of SNSD. So I assume that Jessica had to make a very challenging decision and choose between two things that she loved. I believe she wanted to focus on her fashion company and what not for the time being, until it settled down and she could get started on her future goals. So I do believe that she put aside her activities for GG only temporarily.

However I am again going to assume that SM. E was not going to have any of that. I believe that SM saw that as Jessica taking advantage of GG’s name as she started her fashion line (although we all probably know that Jessica would never take advantage of her sisters). Anyway the point is that there must be some very sticky business sides to her contract as a GG member, her contract as an SMTOWN artist, and her contract to do whatever she would like to do in her personal life that has not be informed to the public. (It may quite possibly never be exposed to the public).

I do feel shocked, disappointed, angered, and most of extremely miserable that Jessica will not be a part of SNSD anymore. However that does not mean I will love SNSD or Jessica any less. I love Soshi’s music, dances, all their personalities, and just everything about them. For now I want to see what the future holds for all of the girls. From there I will see whether I can live with the changes or not.

As for my fanfictions. I will continue them. My reason is that my stories are not about SNSD nor are they about SM. My stories are based on my love of the interactions/relationships that the girls have with each other. That love and those relationships will never change because I know in my heart that those nine girls really do care very much about each other.

As for my unnie’s stories I will also continue to finish those because my beloved sister began to write her stories when all of this news was not occurring. I do not think that is fair in her memory to just leave them unfinished.

I love Girls’ Generation. I love Taeyeon, I love Sunny, I love Tiffany, I love Hyoyeon, I love Yuri, I love, Sooyoun, I love Seohyun, I love Yoona, and I love Jessica.

I will always love Girls’ Generation. I will always love our strong and childish leader, Taeyeon. I will always love our aegyo queen and chicken catching master, Sunny. I will always love our pink obsessed brighter than mushrooms, Tiffany. I will always love our cute powerful dancing queen, Hyoyeon. I will always love our beautiful black pearl, Yuri. I will always love our happy shikshin princess, Sooyoung. I will always love our sweet yet maturing maknae, Seohyun. I will always lover or visual center and lovely deer Yoona. Finally I will always love our ice-princess with the heart of gold, Jessica.

Which means my love for writing about my nine angels will not change.

I know that many of my readers are going through a hard time right now. I also know that many of you will disagree with me. And that is perfectly fine with me.

But the way I see it whether we are on the same page or not, we can longer just sit here and be sad and angry about the situation.

All we can do right now is learn how we can possibly move on. Slowly but surely we will all get through this in our own different ways.

With a fragile heart,

YoongieYulInfinity