It's just one of those nights when I can't sleep because I miss my older sister...

Usually I would never rant on the internet but I really don't want to bother anyone with my phone calls this late at night.

So I hope you'll excuse me just this one time...

Dear Unnie,

Unnieeeee.... I know it's been more than 2 months since you've passed on but I still miss you.

I miss your voice calling my name.

i miss you screeching slaughtered Kpop lyrics in the shower.

I miss your gently whisper when you would wish me goodnight as you snuck back in late at night.

I miss how you would pat my head.

I miss how you would kiss me on the forehead and ask how I slept, every morning.

I miss you when you would hug me just because.

I miss your bright laughter and wide smile.

i miss how you got excited at the little things in life.

I miss your clumsiness.

I miss your uncontrollable spirit as you dragged me through all the excitement in your life

I miss how you would be quiet, although you never were a quiet person, just because I was the calm one.

I miss your voice when you would call my name.

I miss how you would know without me telling you that I need a hug.

I miss how you would be there for me no matter what.

I miss goofing off together and laughing until we were crying.

I miss having a shoulder to cry on whenever I needed it.

I miss someone comforting me when my day was bad.

I miss having you sleep with me when I had nightmares.

I miss having someone standing up for me when people would tease me.

I miss your writing.

I miss how you'd get excited over updating your story...

I miss how happy you'd be when your readers commented.

I miss every little thing about you unnie....

I miss you so so so sooooo much. I don't know how to put words to it.

I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.

Please unnie... I just don't know how to live without you.

come back to me.... Just once. 

I want you to hug just one more time and tell me that everything will be okay.

Unnie... I try to live strongly so I don't burden anyone around me.

But sometimes it just hurts so much... I need you.

Why did you leave so early? Why did you have to go?

Unnie... I'm crying and there's no one to comfort me anymore.

What am I supposed to do?

Please unnie... What should I do?

I miss you.