I don’t think I can ever believe it. It’s so surreal.

I’ll never hear Jessica sing again. I’ll never see SNSD on stage as 9 ever again.

I’m not a sone. I’m a f(x) fan, in case some people don’t know. I’m a f(x) fan but I write more fanfics about snsd than f(x). I haven’t spent a really long time knowing SNSD, but I know they are very, very important to me, especially Jessica.

Jessica is more than an idol to me. She is more than a member of SNSD, she is more than Krystal’s sister.

Jessica was the one who helped me realize my passion for writing. If I didn’t know her and SNSD, I probably wouldn’t have started writing fanfics.

I just really, really want to write snsd fics. I want to continue writing snsd fics for a long, long time.

I’m not sure if I can do that anymore.

I choose to believe Jessica. I choose to believe SNSD. I choose to believe OT9. It’s OT9 or nothing.

Jessica put in her sweat and tears for SNSD. Jessica loves SNSD. How can Jessica be called an ice princess when she’s the sweetest and warmest person ever? Who’s going to tell us to respect, understand and be the bigger person now? Who’s going to wake up late and complain about waking up on weibo? Who’s going to greet us a goodmorning now?

This isn’t just a simple dating scandal. This is her leaving SNSD.

She wanted to stay.

And I… I want her to stay, too.