falling ..
Is it just me, or has this year been harder?
I don't know. Maybe it's my mood? Maybe I've changed. I'm not sure of what to do anymore. Before, I always prayed, but now, God even seems dark to me. Have I fallen so far, that I can't get back on my feet? Where am I? I'm supposed to be a loving friend, but now I'm people's enemy.
This morning, I was being lectured by my mom again, and I started to think, "Well, maybe the stuff she's talking about is true."
I'm a liar and a horrible person. I just can't stand being like this anymore. I want to change, but everytime I try, I end up falling back down again. It's all my fault, Mom, I take the blame.
I'm sorry.
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