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Is anyone else just tired of pretending?
Tired of smiling all the time. Tired of studying all the time. Tired of existing. 
My uncle is dead. 
My grandpa is dead. 
My parents fight with each other all the time. When they can't find the other to argue with, they yell at me instead. 
I'm not smart enough for this math I have to do. 
I'm losing my house. 
Nobody cares. 
My best friend and I are fighting. 
What's the point of caring anymore?
I cut my hand open yesterday cutting vegetables and now I can't write a long enough story to make my unni happy. 
I bother my friends for help with math. 
I'm not happy enough to make my friends happy. 
I make people worry about me. 
I complain to you guys. 
I probably failed my math quiz. My parents are going to yell at me, but they do that anyway, so what's the point?
My heart hurts. 
I'm tired of saying I'm fine. 
I should figure out how to hide my feelings better so I don't worry my friends. 
I'm sorry for bothering you. 

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hunny_gomXD
#1
Forget Everything and Keeps Your Head Up . Everyone will taste the pain you feel . Even me , myself feels that . Don't worry , other people will always with you . :) . Just be grateful that you still being love by people out there . Be thankful and grateful to God . He always be there for you :) . Stay Strong , Dear :)
bboyxx
#2
Pm me, ik that feeling, im right in the boat with you.
Kaitaro_ozu
#3
Yah~ Sujin~ Stay strong :)

Like what everyone said, I'm also here for you~ Yeah its a pretty rough road for you now but it can also straighten out if you keep on your journey.. You made it this far right? Be proud :) You're already strong and I know you can be stronger. Let your friends listen.. Worrying friends can only mean they love and care for you.. Treasure them :)
I'm also terrible at Math and I never knew my dad. I stopped schooling because I failed and disappointed my folks. Right now I'm really depressed.. Coming from me. I'm reminding you that Life can be full of sometimes~ Surround yourself with beautiful people and eventually you can feel good about yourself, family will always be there~ Everything will fall into place soon~

You have a strong heart kid~ Don't let it fail~ :)
kdramafan #4
Hey!!
You are not a bother to anyone ...
You have me ... You're unnie right here will take care of you ...
I told you when ever you need help let me know ...
We care about you and whenever you need to rant you can count on me to be there to listen to you ...
Don't worry about maths yeah ?!! Remember what I said .. Do your best .. Of you've done all you can do than that's it ...
Dont be sad ....
I don't like it
Saranghae <3 *cuddles *
wish I could come and fly over to you to help ...
SassiFIq #5
Yah!Unnie you never bother me!I love you and all your little things!Even if your not that great in Math unnie ah.I still love you hmm..?Actually,unnie ah..I'm even worse off right?Hmm,I'm here..?I love you okay!Its me Jocelyn.I still love you and I always will <33
Geeky4ever
#6
Sujinnie! Don't say such things! You are not a bother to me or to anyone. You never bother me, and I enjoy your company. Please talk to me if you're feeling sad because I don't want to be sad that my dongsaeng is sad. I'm here for you, Sujinnie. Don't forget that.
imafan_too
#7
HEY, we're always here to listen..
Don't lose hope..
You're not bothering us ok??
Just talk to us if you need to release those bad feelings.
Don't keep them in ok??
I'll be praying for you.. :)
Saty strong Taoris95..
Fighting!! :)
dolce-peach
#8
No no, don't be sorry! It's good to let your feelings out once in a while. Parents fight, okay? That's just what they do. And they love you okay? Don't take it personally; they're doing it because they love you and they want the best for you. We're all human that way; we all make mistakes and blame others. Btw, I'm pretty bad at math too :)
Don't be scared..I'm scared of everything all the time, and when you're scared of everything, you miss every good thing going over your head. Sighh. Idk if it's just me, but this year seems a lot harder. Just know that your friends and family around you love you!!
I hope your hand heals! Don't hurt yourself, chingu! I'm praying~ We're all here for you!! Hwaiting :D
TopTopsAll #9
Life is full of misfortunes, but also full of fortunes. Nothing lasts forever, this phase will pass at some point. So don't give up now! You have your whole life in front of you, just try to stay positive~ I totally understand your math problem, I used to fail math all the time but then I got a private teacher, it's okay that you ask your friends for help, they want you to pass the test, they want to help you, cause you're their friend^^ and I'm sure there are some lovely people here who are willing to help you~! I know studying is really tiring, and it seems slightly pointless at this point, but in the end it's all for you, if you push yourself you might end up with great scores and if not, you can always fix them in the future^^ tests are not everything in life! Don't worry sweetie, after the bad times, comes good times^^ hope you'll feel better soon~! And remember there is always someone who understands, you are not alone, and you don't bother us at all, you don't bother me at least^^
Coiste #10
You're never bothering us! Honestly, it's the best of us that have to deal with getting down sometimes...like honestly, this whole past week was so stressful and upsetting. I had college visits for universities I don't even care about, my mom was tired too so we kept getting annoyed at each other...so many things happen because humans are just stressed out beings. Power through, okay? I know from experience that there's always a silver lining to even the stormiest of clouds...
diannan #11
Life has its way of doing stupid things! But in the end, life will sort itself right :) btw how old are you I want to know if I'm actually your unnie
sleeplessnight
#12
I'm sorry to hear about your misfortunes. I'm not good with words but I want you to know that you're still young and this is a passing phrase in your life. Life is beautiful, everything we go through helps us grow into a better person in the future. After every storm comes rainbow, you may or may not see it now, but sooner or later you'll find that rainbow. I don't know how I can help but hear me out, smile when you want to smile and cry out loud if you feel like it. Don't bother with what others say because it's you that matters to yourself in the end. Find something that will make you happy and put a wide smile to your face and hold onto it.
Remember you still have us here that got your back and support. HWAITING!