Hey there, I'm a lot like you, I have self harmed yes, but only once, I'm too scared to do it again. I agree that sometimes, I feel weak and useless and I always bottle up the feelings inside, putting a fake smile on my face, it hurts my pride yes. I understand that you don't want anyone to find out about this, and your not very comfortable to talk about it to someone. I'm the same ^^. I'm afraid that someone will judge me, that they will tell somebody, I don't trust that person enough, even if it's family. You could have a different reason, but this is mine.I won't force you to talk to somebody, but I do recommend when you feel like self harming or totally weak, close your eyes. Take deep breaths and just, relax. I don't know if it works for you, but it dos for me. I plug in some earphones and listen a little, lie down and try to forget those feelings. You can't stop them, but you can soften them, and try to avoid doing anything reckless. If you feel like you really want to talk to someone, you know they won't spill. Someone online can help, they don't know your face, name or identity, so you'll be safe. I'm open, so you're welcome to talk to me, anytime ^^. I hope this helps in a way, and try to forget about them and just live your life ^^, I know I can't say, but Good Luck ^^

I selfharm as well... I started about two months ago.
I havent selfharmed for a week or two now, i told my online friend i trust about it and since then i havent done it... I have wanted to do it but i endured ^-^!

Me and my friend havent talked about it ever since.. But he has tried to help netherless and i know he thinks about my selfharm everyday.

It rly helped <3

If you arent ready to tell somebody in real life then tell a friend from online that you trust... And when you feel like selfharming then speak to ur friend about it.. Or just talk to anybody, doesnt need to be about ur selfharm, just anything !

Hope you ll feel better soon!
I understand how you feel like, its xD!

I self harmed for a over a year until I learned a new way to deal with things. Let writing be your way out. You don't have to post anything, or use characters or anything just simply write how you feel. It can help. It helped me. And im not disappointed because I don't know what your life is like, none of us do but even if we did I know I won't judge. If you ever need someone to talk to ill give you my time. I'll listen, give advice or whatever. Keep your head up because days will get better. I'll help you get through this even if it means inboxing you everyday. You're only human, its okay to break down. Stay strong! Fighting!

Even during my hardest times.....
If you need anyone to talk to you could always talk to us....

I've been bullied before....and have been depressed too....I'm not going to say its okay because thats the thing that people lie about....depression isn't okay.....it's a pain in the .... Self Harm? I know it's hard....but...mas cliché as it sounds i needyou to stay strong for us....believe it or not...but music and Kpop was the hand that reached towards me ecen during

I really hope you get well again soon. If you need anyone to talk to please do talk to me I have been in that place you are at. It's hard painful, you feel like there is no way out. It's long and hard, and I really want to be there for you if you just want a friendly chat. If you need someone to cheer you up.
You are at a place where you can go one way or another. I hope you stay like me and choose the right option. Depression is a horrible and evil thing and If i could I would strangle it and pull it off you.
Please be okay, If you don't want to talk to family, it's okay, for now, but don't be afraid. Again you can talk to me. I want to be there and to help you. If willpower is your weak spot right now. Again I want to help. I hope you can find a place where you are settled calm and lack of evil thoughts.
Gigi.

I'm... not going to say it's fine, because depression isn't something to joke about and it's obviously not... but it will get better eventually,

I can't say I understand your feelings to the point of going through self harm, but I know what depression feels like because it's been a big part of my life in the past few years. I've thought about self harming quite a number of times in the past, though. I can't tell anyone either, because they'll either think I'm an attention seeker, not know what to do, or result in me losing that bit of pride that comes with dealing with my own thoughts. Telling someone takes a great deal of trust that they won't judge you, which can be pretty hard, so I understand a bit of where you're coming from. Us followers are still here with our faceless identities, though? (Meaning, you can still talk to us if you need support. We'll give it, I'm sure.)

Mood swings are pretty hard to deal with, I think. They come and go whenever they please, and they tend to make everything worse. I really have no advice for this but... please hold on.

We aren't disappointed. I'm not disappointed at all. Being patient comes with being a reader of an ongoing series or in this case, a fic, so this isn't anything new to me. Besides, this is you telling us what the problem is, and you can take as much time as you need to sort your thoughts out and have some time off. You can always still talk to us, because we'll always still be here.

Like I said, we're not disappointed. We'll get through this together. Look on the bright side of things, or whatever else they say. It'll get better, alright?

T^T
I am not disappoint in you. I just hope that you will take care of yourself. If you decide that you want to talk, you can PM me.
Fighting! ^^