Here I am writing a fanfic and blogging about my feelings. I read my blog posts and my story. I realise I'm one mad woman. A mad kid. I need to ask myself every single day to keep myself in check that I'm a perfectly normal person. I think of thinks that requires me to become bigger and a better person. I think and speak in way that are 10 steps ahead. That people are confused with what I say. They clearly are not on par with me. So I know what is me and who I can be. I don't really get way people wants t o be humble. It really minimises your actual intellectual and ability.

I really think I can change the world. But I always knew the world is the most useless things that I had ever seen. Pathethic. You live life for nothing. In the end the road you walk is death. What's after death? I'm clearly aware what happens next but I don't want to get too religious with you guys. I guess pay back what did and did not? That's the only thing I'm willing to say. I can tell about brillant philosophy and how things work in life. Step by step. I understand before going through step 2-9. I just get to step 10. That's why I'm being marked as the weirdo. Tell me whether I'm as I seem?