This is just another ranting blogpost....

So, I just started my new semester these two weeks. I'm in the last year by the way and now I have three different generation of my junior, I feel old T----T and something happened this days, not a good one. I barely have enough time to enjoy my life and I guess I won't have those times for now on since... *sigh* it's not like I want to complaint about all of the assignment but I'm tired. Really. The thing is I have these kind of 'friend problem' too and I'm sick of it. I don't have enough motivation to do all of this assignments and now I have to face my roommate with all of our problem. If only we were okay, it would feel better to do all of the assignments. And this is not a new problem for us, we had been argued about this two or three times before and maybe I'm the one who came up with this problem first this time, not her. Okay, blame me. I know I'm wrong I have to apologize first but this problem won't meet the ending by the way.

Maybe, just maybe, you're wondering what kind of problem it is. It involves my feeling of course and I feel hurt because all of this, because her, because her boyfriend too. I, she and he are bestfriends. Oh no, we were bestfriends back then I guess. Okay I hurt them too, but I have my own reason. You know the feeling when you have a girl bestfriend and a guy bestfriend, you thrice have been together for almost three years and all of sudden they both like each other and start dating and you were like asking yourself, "What am I?" to yourself, because heck there is no the same feeling when you thrice hang out together. You feel like they ignore your presence since they are too busy with their world and you have nowhere to go but alone. Have you ever been in my position? And this ex girl bestfriend is your freakin roommate! I'm done with this kind of bestfriend feeling! I have no one here and it's been two weeks I don't get home! I'm homesick and I'm alone! FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUU-- May I cursing? No? Okay, I'm sorry.

And another thing is today is my birthday. Can I have someone here to share all of my feelings and sing a happy birthday song for me and give me a hug and tell me I'm going to do all of my lecture stuffs well? I know the answer is no. Thanks for remembering me, life. I have bunch of assignments here and the deadline is freakin Monday but I end up here on AFF blogposting an unimportant ranting. Wish me a goodluck to have a time to go home today ;-;

Oh, and I just want to ask if there is someone interest if I post my already finished novel here? I have been finished this novel in the beginning of this year and still I don't have enough guts to send this novel draft to publisher. I wrote it in bahasa, all I need is translating it to english and then posting it. The story is lil bit angsty but still have fluffy romance side too and it contains about 20 chapters. Tell me if you feel like want to read it teheeee xD

Thanks for reading! <3 Have a nice weekend guys ;;)