What it feels like to be called fat

Well this is the first time for me to post anything out here, but seriusly I really need to get this out.

Well you see, I have a few people nagging on me constantly. A good example is a woman that my family knows, Seriously this is the first time that I actually speek that informally but, I really hate her and I hope that one day she'll find out what she did to me.

Well you see I'm pretty tall, 174 cm but I'm also a little bit chubby- 65 kg- but that woman keeps on telling me that I'm fat. She told me about 1 week ago that I looked like a ball, The problem is that she said it out loud, in other words in front of people. And now people are looking down at me. The bigest problem I have is that I've started to feel really nousious whenever I see a lot of food. And today I (Sorry for the language) started to vomit as soon as I came home.

My mother came to me manny times today telling me that I have to eat, she even made my favorite. But as soon as I go anywhere near the kitchen, I start to feel really, really sick.

What do I do? I'm hungry, really. But I've already vomited two times now.

(Sorry for any typos)

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RealisticOptimist #1 Sep 28, 2014 16:15:27

I found this post really late but I can empathize because I'm Korean and practically raised in a body-shaming culture/family xP

No one is actually looking down on you. It's just yourself. Believe me, I've been there. Most Korean girls my height (5'2") are around 45-ish kilograms but I weigh about 50-51 kilograms. I mean, what do these people expect? I'm a freaking all-honors and all-AP high school student with no time to work out and loaded down with homework, so all I do is eat and return to my desk to finish it! But my parents all call me fat (in front of company, in front of strangers, in front of friends, in front of everyone.) At first, I used to get hurt by it...because honestly, who in their right mind would call ANY girl fat?!...but now I just brush it off.

Who cares if you're fat? If anyone does, then they sure as hell SHOULDN'T. It's not their body; they have no right to dictate what it should or shouldn't look like. Of course, I'm not advocating obesity or poor eating choices, but body-shaming is a sensitive topic of today's society and no girl should ever have to endure it. But unfortunately, because people are S, we unfortunately do. So the best insult we can hurl back in the haters' faces is show that their words don't hurt because we're comfortable with who we are.

Hope this made you feel a bit better :) and if you ever want to talk, don't hesitate to message me! Body-shaming and the fact that girls feel the need to live feeling insecure about what God and their mothers gave them just outrage me.

shahudahaha #2 Sep 13, 2014 01:01:32

Thank you for all the comments, my friend just told me that there was a bunch of comments, you know it's nice to know that people care hehe thank you all very very much I'm happy that I actually wrote this instead of keeping it on the inside Hehe (　^ω^)

birds_ #3 Sep 12, 2014 16:37:31

Don't let other people comments get so much to you. (Yes, I know, it's easier said than done. )

I have the same problem - just people ask me constantly am I anorexic or not. I have troubles gaining weight, it's harder than losing weight. Don't stop eating - start exercising if it's bugging you so much.
It can help you lose weight and it can make you feel great. (yes, this too is easier said than done, but not impossible.)
Also - for your height, I don't think you're overweight, you're just a healthy child. :3

MasterTrollSama #4 Sep 12, 2014 16:12:49

I'm guessing you're 16. If so: http://www.nhs.uk/Tools/Pages/Healthyweightcalculator.aspx

You are healthy. However, my two sisters are at roughly the same BMI and are treated like they're "fat", but it's only because me and my cousins are annoyingly stick thin.

(and honestly, it's not amazing being thin. You're perceived as weak, too young, shapeless and people seem to instantly hate you especially if they are truly over-weight; people judge you, tell you "eat more!" even though I do, and ask if I'm well when there's nothing wrong and compare themselves to you "Oh I wish I was that thin", when really my bones stick out so bad my tailbone doesn't allow me to sit back and my ribs ache when I sleep on the side; it's not great.)

You need to not care and not compare yourself to what everyone thinks is good. Being thin isn't good; it's pretty unhealthy and has a lot of issues with it, like I've mentioned briefly. You are healthy. Please remain healthy, neh? Eat food little and often for now and eat whatever you want. Don't feel bad for not eating your favourite food, okay? Just eat whatever your stomach craves.

Fighting. I sincerely hoped this help, even if it was a little.

informantxgirl #5 Sep 12, 2014 13:01:50

i don't how you can be chubby at all considering you might even be underweight! i've always been told you ideal weight is your height minus 100 - so by all rights, you should weight 74 kg +/- a kilogram or two. I think you might be having an anxiety attack from the stress of her inconsiderateness. Maybe try eating something small, like a piece of fruit or something, then working your way up. If this goes on, you might want to talk to a counselor or something. I've been called fat all my life, even been pinched and told to lose weight, and yes, it used to upset me, but in the end, I'm healthy and that's all that matters. A lot of these rude people have very low self-esteem, and lash out at others. Fighting!