I just realized that slowly I'm drifting away from the "crazy fangirl" fandom. However, I am not drifting away from admiring my boys - Super Junior- , despite of tons of rookie groups debuting here and there. Super Junior had always been in my heart, its like they are already embedded in there. Six years had passed since I first laid my eyes on them. Wow. Time surely flies. 

I realize that I don't consider myself as a "fangirl" anymore, I just considered myself now as a fan. I don't go crazy whenever I see their face somewhere, I don't scream my lungs out anymore when their faces flashes on my screen (concerts are exceptions, of course). I just realized that I stopped imagining crazy things about my bias and I being together. I started accepting reality that this, this is what I am really, a fan who adores an idol not because of their looks, but because those 15 dorks taught me how to treat a good friend, taught me to value friendship more than ever and importantly, they had taught me that you never, ever give up on your friends even though that friend left you without a word. They taught me to never lose hope and never lose the sight of the day. 

WE are all growing up. But I guess, that's okay. 

The lessons we had learn from our idols will forever remain on our hearts.