Many years ago, I stumbled upon Super Junior on a local music tv. My first thought about them was that they look weird yet somehow, they are good looking. One member caught my attention for the sole reason that he looks like my crush. And so, I searched them on the internet and that's where it all began. And to be blunt, I think it took me at least a month to remember their names. 

I followed them ever since. I became an E.L.F., I became a solid fangirl. I went to events, concerts and album launch. I have all of their released albums here, I treasure their posters (I treat them lovingly lol). I WAS THE TYPICAL TEENAGER FAN GIRL. I tried to learn Korean (I learned to read and write basic korean during our mandarin/spanish class back in high school, lol).

THEN, I graduated high school and went to college. At first, I was scared and hesistant to release my inner fangirl because the environment is very new to me. I have not known many people yet, I was still a newbie. Overhearing my blockmates talk about KPOP, I was a bit disappointed. And I suppressed the fangirl inside me. I knew back then that I have to fit it in orer for me gain friends. IN WHICH I DID THANK GOD. They learned that I was into KPOP at the end of the first term and my college buddies are okay with it but they are not big fans (most of my friends are guys) BUT some watch korean dramas so its kinda fair. 

DURING that time, I was so caught up with school that the inner fangirl inside me slowly drifted away.

I matured from being the high school teenage fangirl that follows Super Junior and many others everywhere on social media (early tumblr days, fanfics, fan cafe) to this QUIET but DEDICATED fan.

THEN, I realized that I was not the same person as I am back then.

I am now that kind of fan who just smiles whenever I see them on advertisements, TV programs and music shows. I've witnessed the hardships that SJ had went through all these years and I've seen them grow into beautiful and more mature individuals.

And I can say the same for myself.

There is one thing I am sure of,

I will always, always, be a fan. 

I will love them as a true everlasting friend.