/sighs/

I've been having a lot of friends from different places online. I can say i'm much more open and talkative on the Internet, but of course i was trying to be friendlier in personal-. I'm just too shy to approach first. :)

I felt like having this opportunity to make friends online is one of the happiest things that has happened in my life. Seriously, the people i met were totally awesome and friendly, makes me want to be their neighbor and knock on their door everyday and go craycray about Kpop together XD I'm really thankful i've met people like you (SHOUTOUT TO PROTOGEAPE A.K.A JORDAN XD, ButThatsNotAwkward FOREVER FUNNY AND CUTE AND KIDULT AND SMART BAEK-BIASED UNNIE, AND A FEW OTHERS I BRIEFLY CHATTED WITH).  

But along this pure happiness i've felt with the foundations of friendships we have, there are also factors which make me feel...sad.

When i used Kakaotalk and Practice Language and LINE, i have met a LOT of oppas, dongsaengs, and unnies from diff. countries, most of them are actually Korean. We talk at first for the purpose of teaching each other languages, but it would always end up with friendly conversations, until it's just endless, starting from a simple Good Morning and a comlicated Good Night /because goodnight doesn't meant time for bed for all of us/ . The most unforgettable were the first awkward calls but later on, it's just a laughing memory we will always love to talk about.

One of my korean friends, a dongsaeng, landed here on Cebu, Philippines for a trip. He had tagged me and my younger sis with the caption ' Hello Philippines.' I was really glad he has arrived despite the very far distance of Cebu to my place. 

Just this day he had told me he was currently at CDU(Cebu Doctor's University). He then followed a question asking how far he was from my place and then it hit me.

Too far.

I told him he could only ride either by ship or plane /he asked for bus, still the bus would be carried by the ferry/. If he rides the ferry, it will take him days. And if he takes the plane, it will take hours.

His answer was only 'Oh i see...have a good night.. noona'.

I'm sad because he was actually aiming to visit my home, and i wou,d be gladly welcoming him if he ever did. But reality is sinking to me, he was way toooo far and the money for spending the travelling is not a joke.  And goodness, even if Korean teens are like matured adults traveling to diff. countries, that dongsaeng is just..13? 15? i'm sorry i forgot xD but he's still young, i only remembered he told me he was with a few friends. On my case tho, even if i was 17, my omma would freak out if she knew i want to travel. She'll be like 'whatthehellareyouthinking' XD It was not easy for parents here to just let their children travel without them. I really admire teenagers like me who can already travel that far by themselves. :) 

So as i was saying, it was just..sad. I mean, sure there have been jokes on our conversations about seeing each other personally and being neighbors etc etc, but when there is the real situation, wih you two nothing but the internet connecting you both, it makes you want to dig a hole or something. Or sleep then wake up a few steps away from the person.

.Or maybe, have wings so i could just fly to where my dongsaeng was.

/sighs/ reality is really difficult xDD i have to learn how to handle things like this /because i'm a full-of-emotions person/ xDD you know...have to be strong.

I sddenly miss every single bff/friend i have here on the networking sites. I SO WANTED TO SEE YOU ALL PERSONALLY.:(

Okay, I'm gonna stop the drama now XD srsly, i think writing like this really helps you feel better. :)

I hope dongsaeng will enjoy because as the slogan in Cebu saYs, 'IT'S MORE FUN IN THE PHILIPPINES!' XDD He promised me to send photos though. Fighting ssaeng! :D

And to all the people i've known here, I might be O.A. but i want you to know that YOU ACTUALLY MEAN A LOT TO ME :D I JJST THOUGHT LONG-DISTANCE FRIENDSHIPS ARE SO SPECIAL <3 I mean, it's not easy to meet someone when you're oceans away from them, right? :)

Hope we all remain this friendship bonds for a looooooooooooooong time!