WOW. just...wow.

I know i might be a bad daughter right now, but please let me rant this out for awhile and lecture me later. /sighs/

To put it simply,

I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG, BUT WHY AM I RECEIVING THE PUNISHMENT?!

I wanna let out angry tears.

here i was, sitting dead silently in front of my laptop, FULL OF PAPER WORKS AND AROUND ME, and still with my sticky uniform on, not even having a chance to eat dinner. This is definitely one of the worst feelings eveeer.

BUT THEN GUESS WHAT? IT'S UPGRADED.

This morning when my omma woke both us sisters for breakfast, she began asking us about school and what we need and what to do, stuff like that. Despite me being sleepy, i tried hard to answer her politely and straight, not answering whatever answers you simply blurt out when your mind is half-asleep.

But then, this dongsaeng of mine seemed to be hot-headed /she's always like that when she wakes up/ and her answers regarding mom's questions were  a big TROUBLE. She's not answering politely and she even sounded annoyed everytime omma asks her. I was silent, mentally screaming 'STOOOOOP IT' to my sis, hoping she would receive telepathy (which didn't worked out, Mine and Jordan's telepathy was the best btw) but she didn't.

and that's when omma gets angry, leaving for work without any regular goodbye kiss and such.

When i got to school, omma texted me, saying we(me and dongsaeng) don't even know hoe to appreciate what parents have done for us. I can't argue with that, because who knows? I maybe not noticing things, but fyi, i actually appreciate the smallest of things.

So i just replied "Sorry."

When i got home, it's worse.

I was about to tell appa about my application for a publishing org as a staff writer, but then our conversations came up with something that leads to him blaming my interest for Kpop to my lack of knowledge of things.

It hurts. BIG TIME.

The fact that he blames my kpop interest /when it is really not, REALLY/ and that he says my flaws so straightforwardly it hits me right in the head and box of emotions. I feel like . Still, i kept silent because it's wrong to answer back and i keep reminding myself that THEY ARE RIGHT, I HAVE TO ACCEPT WHAT THEY SAY AND IMPROVE MYSELF MORE, and it goes like that. But i really wanna dash out and make a dramatic mv of myself.

Then omma arrives, without even giving me any attention. I remained silent and continued doing these endless schoolwork of mine, and then i started tp hear their conversations.

Not gonna elaborate, but it's basically the two of them planning to help my dongsaeng on her 'many' assignments' and hesitation to wake her up now coz she's asleep and according to them, 'tired.'

I'm tired as well.

But i thought i'm older, more mature, and i have to understand that my younger sis needed mpore attention. So, okay. Done with that.

But she had done wrong earlier. didn't even apologized yet. 

Why is she easily forgiven why i, who had done nothing wrong, is being treated like someone invisible or something??

It hurts. I know, i'm overly dramatic. Pardon me.

Now, omma even prepared dinner for her, She already woke up, and started eating the life out of that delicious food.

WELL, HOPE I COULD HAVE A LIFE LIKE THAT, TOO.

I should apologize, right? It's not like i have any other choice,

And my stomach is growling exo  food right now.

I feel like .

I have these loads of school works i have to finish in a week, and i have this problem alone in our house.

Seriously, i just wanna go to the bathroom and let out my NTH CRYING SESSION again...

I'm such a bad daughter. :(